Dear LiamJames:
You are not alone in your experience of “just poof… gone”- it happened to my youth- where is it? well, just poof, gone. I can hardly imagine that one day, maybe even today, I will be poof-gone too. It is unbelievable, “Can’t wrap my mind around” my own future death. Really? There will be no more Me?
You asked to not be given advice, so I am not.
anita