Long story short, I’m 5 months pregnant. This pregnancy was unplanned, the father of my unborn child and I were only together for a month when I got pregnant. Unfortunately for me, by the time I figured out he is immature, selfish and lied to me about a lot of things – I was already pregnant. Here I am now, 5 months pregnant and single. We broke up when I was about 3 months pregnant because I kept finding out about lies he would tell me, mostly having to do with other girls. During those 3 months I forgave him multiple times, mostly because I wanted my child to have both parents in his life, until one day I realized it was causing more stress than good and stress + pregnancy = disaster. So I broke up with him. The 2 months after the break up he didn’t call me, text, email, facebook – NOTHING. I got zero support from him, both emotionally and financially, I have come to terms with being a single mom and actually felt a little relief I didn’t have to deal with his immature, selfish actions.
Still, there was a voice in the back of my head that told me to reach out and work something – so I did. Two weeks ago I sent him a text, we talked that day and he told me that he was sorry and that he was going to make things better, we made plans to meet up that Saturday to talk. Yay right? WRONG. I didn’t hear from him after that. At this point I’m confused, how can you tell someone you are sorry and that you want to be apart of the child’s life, but act the opposite? I was so angry, for the next week I kept thinking about all of the things he’s done to hurt me and what I would say to him if I ever saw him again.
That didn’t exactly happen. A week after that talk he texted me “I’m sorry about last week”, I didn’t reply so he said “Sierra please” – my intentions were to completely ignore him, but that didn’t happen either. Two hours later I responded, and again, long story short, I told him this was his last chance to get his stuff together or I was going to be 100% done with him. Things were ok after that, the showed up to the anatomy scan, he got to see the baby and even feel the baby kick…that was Monday, I didn’t hear from him Tuesday, so when he texted me Wed night I ignored it, the following Monday I texted him that I was angry at him and he told me “Please dont give up on me, please, i’m going to do what I can to fix this”. Here it is Friday and I haven’t heard anything since that text.
WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF. At this point I’m angry at myself because I keep trying to fix something that’s completely broken, when really it just needs to be thrown out with the trash. Am I wrong for being angry he hasn’t talked to me in the past few days? Is it petty? I just feel like he should be making all the effort he possibly could to make this work, and he’s not. In fact, I’ve had a lot of my friends tell me they see him hanging out at bars all the time, and with a different girl every time.

I have no idea what to do at this point. I’m so angry, hurt and confused.
I’m posting in this forum because I feel that I’m obviously clouded with anger to the point where I’m not making the best decisions and need advice that isn’t biased. The only thing I know to do is be done with him, stop talking to him, ignore him when he tries to say sorry. However, we have a child coming into this world – am I wrong for wanting to keep my son away from him? I just want to protect him. Maybe I just needed to write this out and see it in front of my face.