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  • October 18, 2014 at 10:09 am #66417
    Bruno
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    Hello people!
    I am Bruno, I am 17 years old, I was several bullied since I was a 7 until I was 13. That changed me obvs.
    I struggled with anorexia, and I live in a small town in Italy.
    I don`t have a very good relation with my parents.
    I am in my third year of high school.
    I live exactly in southern Italy.
    I usually have panics attacks and anxiety.
    At The moment I don`t have a friend.
    I am feeling alone.
    I hate living in such a small town (there are online 120 people)
    I still fight with an eating disorder.
    I am afraid of many things, like dogs but mostly about my future. I have a loads of dreams, a lots. I want to go out of my town, to study or work.
    But I dont have any chances, I HAVE THE MOST HORRIBLE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD. I dont want to talk more about him.
    I thought a lots about suicide. I think a lots about suicide.
    But I dont want to kill myself for ONLY ONE REASON I want to achieve my dreams. But I know I cant.
    The story goes on and on, but in a nutshell I NEED HELP NOW. I dont know if I can get one hand from Buddhism BUT I NEED HELP. I cant live anymore like that.
    I have to live another two years in my town and Maybe I can go in a uni 4h nearby my town (It`s in the same fucking region).
    I forgot to tell one thing I am gay.
    I live in a town completely homophobic.

    October 19, 2014 at 5:13 pm #66493
    TS
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    Bruno,

    It sounds like you have a lot going for you, like the fact that you have dreams. Hold on to them. Try to ignore the ignorance and judgement of other people. I can’t imagine how difficult that must be in such a small town. If you can, and have access to, try to get away sometimes to a bigger town. Get away. Meantime at home know that every day you get up and push through is one more day closer to those two years from now when you can get out of that town and way from all those judgmental people. There are a great deal of people in the world that understand and are compassionate and will accept you for who you are. Believe that and know that you have a light at the end of the tunnel. You can escape from your town in a couple years and find those people and be embraced by them and not rejected. Just hold on. Keep your dreams in mind and get on the internet.. use it to connect with people who have the same dreams you do and who can empathize with you. You aren’t alone.

    Keep strong.

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