@peter You know what? I think I often did the same, there were days that I would be in a low mood and I would shout “screw it!” and just worked with no expectations like I didn’t really care if I failed. In those times it went very well and in the end I would be happy with the results and share with others. I take my work too seriously and it is killing my drive, we know that the human body is afraid of discomfort and try to stay away from it. If I’m always afraid and believe making art is a struggle, hard, slow, I’m unmotivated, fear of disappointment and so on… Then there’s just no reason to do it if all it’s to be is pain.
Don’t know about you but I’m a gamer and I love video games. A LOT. I decided to analyze what comes to my mind when I feel like playing something. There’s the excitation, expectations, looking for a challenge, wanting to get better, I play just because I want to and not because I have to.
Now… It’s not always all rainbows I can get quite mad sometimes and swear but I can take a short break and few hours later I return back and feel fresh and new. I enjoy unlocking achievements and they can be very challenging, sometimes you have to start all over when you make a mistake, but I still like it, I find it odd, like why do I want it so badly to get all of them? I could easily make a living by just playing video games all day long because I’m good at it and been doing it since I was like 5 but I would prefer to create them and share with the world and inspire.