Here nothing is manicured, not in our yard here, not in the front, not in the back and not anywhere. All is wild. Saw elks and deer today as well as a raven forever more. Going for another walk and then to the market, a social gathering of sorts. Be here in a few hours/
I understand your problem with remoteness as it is to be expected living in remote areas. Some people call it “The middle of nowhere”- but it is not the middle of nowhere although you can see nowhere from here.
* Met a man at the market this evening who insists that he will be moving to Canada if Donald Trump becomes President. He seems terrified.
We are not in control, God is. We can control our thoughts, and our actions. That is it. When I got into recovery and I really began to think of it, it made me feel very small and powerless. I know that I used to be filled with only my egoic mind. I had no power, I thought I was ego. I found supernatural power and out of bondage to myself through Jesus. I know that when I live in the spirit by being filled with the spirit, I know the power that is within me isnt mine, it is Jesus and in the spirit, I forget all about me. It wares off in a few days and we must constantly be filled or else we will diminish in consciousness and wind up in self again. I cant say no to my damn flesh and my addiction on my own. I have to life constantly fed and I that’s alot of discipline, but I am getting there. Before, I was living my life based on my thoughts of what I thought was best for me., in the spirit there are no thoughts, there is no you and literally every moment is the only moment and the next you have no idea, because youre not in control, God is. I definitely believe God knows what is best for me more than I do. I also know that in my will I am self destructive, and I am spirit I am who God made me to be.
The more we relinquish control and surrender our lives the more powerful and spirit fed we are. To hold on is to fear, to let go is to trust.
ITs a journey and trust me, I have to eat my own words, because I battle as well.
I’ve been thinking about your thoughts on the limits of our control. So true that our control exists against a background of limitations. True, but we always have a choice in the way we respond. We choose our actions following the antecedents in our lives. Not only that, but as our choices demonstrate more responsibility, it seems we are trusted by some unseen entity with greater responsibility and more resources. Anyway, you’re right, but I’d argue that our capacity can grow and the limitations can shrink as we amble through life with the best of intentions and mindfulness. 🙂
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