Yes, the Neptune episode was rather strange and I can’t rationalize it away. I tapped into another dimension. Neptune featured VERY strongly, and I don’t know why. A few years prior to this I had an even stranger episode which involved the Roman god Bacchus. I don’t know why the ‘spiritual realm’ decided to do this, because it left me very confused. Bacchus and Jesus share the same monogram, they ride in triumphal processions on animals; they are both associated with wine and viniculture, they spring people from prison and Jesus even uses words spoken by Bacchus/Dionysus in Euripides’ The Bacchae. This leaves me to draw the following conclusions: either Bacchus is the real deal and Jesus is a sanitized copy, or they are one and the same. But, in my opinion, Bacchus/Dionysus is a very real force. You will find that both Karl Jung and Friedrich Nietzsche both experienced this force, although they tried to rationalize it away. This force turns everything upside down and leaves you with a blank canvas. You then are left with no alternative than to try to create your own reality, which is exactly what Nietzsche did. As you can imagine, this is causing very real problems with my Christian faith, as it did with Nietzsche. The Christian God no longer rings true to me. He issues too many orders which clearly display a human agenda at work. The spiritual realm does NOT issue orders. Of any kind whatsoever. What it does do is leave subtle signs which you can accept as being divine or coincidental. It doesn’t interfere. It is neutral, exactly as you said yesterday.

There is something very big out there. And it is everywhere; in you, in me, in our loved ones and pets, in the trees, everywhere. If you come across it, it is truly magical. You are more likely to come across it in your local woods than your local church. Woods and forests have always been the most sacred places.

Best wishes.

Dear Anita, thank you once again, I appreciate your input.

I don’t think we are going to get anywhere here. I cannot deny the truth as I see it, namely that I am on some sort of spiritual path.

I know we don’t just die and that’s it, game over. The nature of the universe is not linear, it is cyclical, so why should our existence be any different? If you think along the lines of day and night, then perhaps you will understand better. If our existence is linear, then at some point why do we not have permanent night or permanent winter?

Thanks for your help, but I think its time to end this topic.

Best wishes.