I believe life is a never ending cycle of ups and downs. Once I accepted that things got a lot easier.

Another really simple but meaningful lesson was that I must FEEL. I should never suppress an emotion, and letting my feelings out will make me feel better. It has worked and I feel lucky to know this.

I have recently cut all ties with my mother due to her un-loving response to her husbands sexual abuse towards me. Some days are easy, happy, and full of laughter…while other days are difficult, sad, and I feel lost.

I feel like I am plateauing, taking some steps back, and not growing anymore. Last night I called my ex that I havent talked to in a long time in search of some closure or acceptance, he threatened to talk to security if I contact him again…

I have also been sleeping with someone new, he is kind and sweet and always texts me asking about my day… I feel happy about this situation but I am not sure if it will be healthy for me while I am going through this.

I am having a rough day ,I woke up and my dryer stopped working, then the bus drove past me, I fell in a huge pile of snow and spent the morning very cold and cried a lot… mainly thinking about my mother.

Advice? Thoughts?
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