I have another forum topic going on some issues I have going on in my life, but have this one underlying cause of some suffering that I need to just get out of my head and maybe ask for help with at the same time.

I know that I need to take things one moment at a time. This is a basic piece of knowledge that allows me to not get overwhelmed by my feelings and emotions surrounding losing a relationship with the love of my life. Its been a year, and though I know we won’t be getting back together, there is this subconscious part of my being that still carries on my life as if we will be together again. I try to ignore it, rationalize with it, accept it, understand it, but know that having these feelings affect the decisions that I make in my life. I know that I’m emotionally vulnerable and find strength when I’m able to put my energies into pursuing my passions (which several weeks ago suddenly came to a sudden and unexpected halt, due to my school closing). I don’t contact him, but he’ll still contact me, which of course makes me anxious, but happy at the same time. These days without having anything to direct my energies towards, I’ve been more susceptible to my feelings of longing.

Today I decided to try something like metta, to give all these longings, desires and love some place to go. I would like to know if anyone has any other type of practice that I could go to when I’m feeling down and hopeless and overwhelmed and wondering if these feelings will ever go away. (Sometimes I imagine being an old woman, still pining away for him).
I’ve lost love before, but never with anyone who I had shared so much with. I’ve never lost a best friend. I know I need a way to cope that’s helpful for my body, mind and spirit.