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February 10, 2014 at 12:06 am #50633AlexyParticipant
Well here goes…. Im having a dilemma. Im about to graduate college in Environmental Engineering. Its been a tough ride, especially with all the doubts along the way. But Im almost done! My dream is to travel… everywhere. Recently (a week ago) I booked a trip to Brazil to the World for almost 5 and a half weeks. And I am /was super excited! Soccer is my passion and I have dreamt of this moment forever and its almost here! However, during my college years I undertook 3 internships and a research position (current job) . I hated two of my internships (I detested going to work) and the one I enjoyed payed well and I was surrounded by good people (which is huge thing for me, I like being in an environment that i enjoy going to. Also it was temporary). Now all of a sudden, there’s a part time position that opened at the place that I liked working at with a potential of being a full time job. The hours of the part time job are pretty flexible. Previously, when i finished that internship at this firm, I told myself I would like to work for them someday. But I also want to go to the world cup and travel. I ing twas even thinking of taking the summer off and go to Japan and Orlando in addition to the World Cup. (In case youre wondering, ive been working since I was 16 and I think this would be an awesome graduation present.) I want to work to go travel, thats why I chose a career that pays decent plus, I like it. But I dont know what I should do. My heart tells me to travel because I have that sense of adventure and life is too short to not enjoy it to the fullest but my mind is looking towards the future and saying ‘this is the job you want’. Im willin to just go to Brazil but I doubt a 5 week hiatus will guarantee me a job when I come back. I know some of the employees at the firm as well so maybe something could be worked out but this is the real world, I cant have everything my way. You have to sacrifice to gain. I always exert this pressure on myself and am jealous of people that are so carefree and make an abrupt move such as studyin abroad without a care in the world. I wanted to do that this summer; thats why I saved so much. But now things have gotten a little complicated and I always blow things into huge propotions and overthink it. Btw, I still live with my parents, so bills arent an issue. Anyways, any thoughts? Any input is appreciated!! Thank you!
February 10, 2014 at 5:35 am #50647@Jasmine-3ParticipantHi Alexy
Congrats on the graduation.
You can create an exceptional life by Louise Hay and Cheryl Richardson will provide an awesome read for you while you travel.
I think your heart is telling you clearly that you wish to travel. You should listen to that and go. If you are meant to work in that workplace that you like, the job will wait for you :). If you are not meant to work in that workplace, no circumstance will help you get the job. Everything happens perfectly and for a reason. Go all out with happy and positive thoughts and Universe will support you in every decision.
Do fill us in with your travel stories once you are done with your gala time. Travel will provide a unique opportunity to see life from a different perspective – glass is half full rather than half empty.
Lots of best wishes,
J
February 10, 2014 at 12:46 pm #50686AlexyParticipantThank you Jasmine-3. I dont know… I also believe everything happens for a reason but in this case I know a couple of the employees at the firm. That would facilitate me getting the job… I think I would have a 90 % chance of getting it… I do want to travel but i want a stable job as well. This undecisiveness is making me heartsick again and doubting myself which I thought I had overcome :(. Thank you for the input!
February 11, 2014 at 9:46 pm #50828@Jasmine-3ParticipantJust came across this beautiful quote. It may come handy for you Alexy.
“Never base your life’s decisions on advice from people who do not have to deal with the results”.
February 12, 2014 at 4:14 am #50843AlexyParticipantThank you for the quote Jasmine. I will keep it in mind when making my decision! 🙂
July 27, 2014 at 5:33 pm #61914AlexyParticipantHi Jasmine,
So the traveling went great! I went to Japan for a month and Brazil for a month and a half.
Japan was beyond awesome. I met so many people there, band friends and friends that I would consider having as life long friends. It went by too fast… I want to go there as soon as possible. Japan was also the place (and this might be TMI) where I first got intimate with the opposite sex. On my 3rd to last to day and 2nd to last day I got lucky with a girl each night. One girl is going to visit me on mmy birthday here, so thats exciting.
Brazil was nice too. But not as cool as Japan. Poverty surrounds Brazil and its hostile environment made it a bit discomforting. I was situated in a dangerous part if town, which made me uneasy. My cell was almost pickpocketed and hit and I witnessed a female get drop kicked. Other than that, great atmosphere, beach, soccer, and the ladies, all things I love. This was in Rio.
I went to visit my friend who happens to be girl 2 and half weeks later. It was a disaster. I used to have feelings for her but saw her now as a sister. And as a “brother” I did not enjoy her making out with other guys. It made me so uncomfortable and I told her that. She continued and did other things to piss me off. At the end she kicked me out of the house and I flew back to the US the next day. We told each other off and that was the end of that friendship. But what is important about this is that beacause of these events, my anxiety and doubts returned. Her making me uncomfortable put me in an anxious state.
Now Im back to reality. And confused once again. I dont know if I should get a lab job, contact this environmental firm, or apply to jobs in REno cuz im sick of Vegas. Im a mess once again, and it seems the trip was only satisfactory for a little while. I blame my ex-friend but now idk what too do. Bills are stacking up and i need a job but I also want to move. Im thinking to get a job, save up and move later… the question is what job?? i know this seems childish but any advice is appreaciated. Thank u and have a great day!
July 27, 2014 at 7:47 pm #61921@Jasmine-3ParticipantHi Alexy
I am glad you had great travels 🙂 I am glad you have added loads of priceless experiences to your life in the last few weeks.
If I were you, I would only keep the happy memories from this journey. Anything you do in life has 2 sides – positive and negatives. If we keep getting stuck to the negative, we will never move forward and embrace the world for its beauty.
It is not the end of the world for you 🙂 Take up any job, which helps you pay the bills for the moment. As the financial burden eases out, look for better opportunities and something that makes your heart and mind tick.
Make a mental film of all the happy memories of Rio, Japan and keep replaying it in your mind every time you feel sad or confusion or have a dilemma. Trust me, it will snap you out of any adversities.
Best wishes my friend
Jasmine
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