Hi everyone,
I’m working through something I haven’t been able to fully let go of, and I’d appreciate some insight.

A while ago, I reconnected with someone from my past who I always felt something for, even back in school. We started talking again, he was the one who reached out and eventually asked to meet up. When we did, he initiated physical closeness and intimacy. I was shy and unsure, but I trusted him and let it happen.

Afterward, he made an awkward comment and left — and I haven’t heard from him since. He’s still online, still connected, but hasn’t messaged me once. It’s been months. I keep wondering if I did something wrong, if he got scared, or if he just used me.

What’s hardest is the silence — no message, no closure, just me carrying this alone. I didn’t expect a relationship, but I didn’t expect to be left with no explanation either.

I want to let go, but part of me still wonders what it meant, or if I mattered at all. If anyone has been through something like this — or has wisdom on how to stop replaying something I can’t get answers for — I’d really appreciate it.

Thank you for reading.