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  • #217995
    Kris
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    Hi, I had a relationship with my now ex-boyfriend for two years and a few months. I am from PR and moved to WA to do my master degree; he was born in WA. I know this sounds cliché, but since we started dating I feel this energy or connection between us, he even mentioned at the beginning. I did not want to knowledge it because I was so hurt in the past and I thought it was the feeling of the first few months. With time I realized it was truth. For example, we feel each other emotional status. Or I was thinking in a random thing and he start talk about it. A few weeks ago I was thinking to propose him to visit Canada again and then I few days later we was talking on the phone I he told me he was looking if we can return to Canada. We almost never had problems, like literally twice in all the relationship and it was not a big deal. I am shy with people, but I get along with his family; his parents love me. We visited Las Vegas, Oregon, Canada, Italy (our each first time in Europe; his parents were inspire by us and went to Italy later also), and New York. He made a stop in Philadelphia before NY just to meet my father last September. We were not perfect, we disagree in some things, but we were a healthy couple.

    The only thing is our careers. He is a sale construction man and he loves his job. My background is mostly biology, conservation, etc. Where we live there not too much opportunities for a permanent position. Two weeks ago a started a seasonal job (probably until Sep 30) in the Forest Service. It is not my field, but it is a job. I mean the unit I am in it is cleaning and talking with people. And the schedule conflict with his off days. I was looking for a permanent job as bank teller, but I was not lucky. Before I meet him, I was thinking to stay here or move to another town close to find a job and just live. And know it was not going to be easy, but I was determined to that; then I met him and I was happy to have someone. When we talked about my future paths he motivated me to look for I job that I would like even if it was not here. So when I asked him what was going to happen with us his answer was like if we are good as couple he can move later and look for a job where I was.

    Last night after I went out from work we dinner together (ironically where it was our first date; the restaurant we was going first was closed). After that, he walked with to my place. I started getting the feeling something was wrong before we met at the pub. So, when we were in the apartment he asked me if I saw I future together, what I said yes. I know maybe because the careers it may be difficult, because if one of us sacrifice for the other maybe that one would feel guilty. But he told me he did not saw sitting at the porch with 85 years old. That we have similar personality, but don’t have the same tastes (e.g. music). We are different in culture, that would be expected, but I don’t have his music, I just find fun a few ones and make fun of it. He like to sleep, but when I stayed I tend to awake early and stay in the bed, but anyways awake him. He said he was feeling a weird energy between us since 1 or 2 months ago. I may be feeling it, but I thought it was because I was looking job, got one, and also he is busy with his job.

    He told he love me, but he has the gut feeling that this is not going to work. He was hesitated to break with me because he doesn’t know if he is doing a mistake and going to regret it in a few months. I proposed to take a break time, but he said it was better to break-up now than continue and find out in 6 months that we don’t belong together. He said it was difficult for him because he still love me and he is not prepared to let me go, but it was the best decision. He asked if we can continue in communication, because he cares about me and want to know if I was ok every few time. At the beginning I told no because I may still have feelings for him and it was going to make me have hope or get hurt again. I later told him maybe we can do that, but that give a least two weeks. I texted him today like at 6:30 am, he replied me soon, so I think he did not may sleep well last night like me or I awoke him with my text. I am going to see him after work tonight. I just need to bent out some things.

    I know it is not his or my fault, but works cannot describe how destroyed I am. I know he was honest, he loves me, but that I cannot make him change of mind. I know this decision was difficult for him. But I do not know how I going to move along. This was my best relationship, the man that I have love most, and never have feeling a connection like that before. I have been hurt before and break-up, but right now I cannot see I future without him. I am dying inside. I just don’t know how I am going to work or how I am going to write and defend my thesis. What I am going to do when I finish my master. I am devastated.

     

    #218023
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Kris:

    He didn’t give you any reasons why he doesn’t see a future with you. I don’t think that different preferences of music was his reason. Since you will be seeing him tonight, can you ask about what lead him to the conclusion that there is no future for the two of you?

    I understand that you are devastated and hope you feel better soon.

    anita

    #218029
    Kris
    Participant

    Hi Anita, thanks for your reply. He used it l

    Ike an example, also he loves loves music, so maybe it is too important for him. Yes, there are some things we have different (e.g. movies), but I don’t thought it was something tto break-up. Even if he is lying to me…  Why? I am pretty sure he is not cheating on me. It is because the difference of careers. But even if it is that, I don’t think I could make him change of mind. I don’t want him to be unhappy

    I could ask him to pass at least an evening with me to see how it goes, but I don’t know….

    #218077
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Kris:

    You mentioned that the reason may be “the difference of careers”. You wrote that you are currently doing your Masters, what is the subject of your Masters and what career are you hoping to pursue?

    anita

    #218111
    Inky
    Participant

    Hi Kris,

    The difference in music is just an excuse. He has nothing to say. What is there to say? You can’t argue with “I’m just not feeling it”. Even if he told you in detail WHY he was REALLY breaking up with you, would that fix anything? Would you/could you justify and convince him to stay with you when you argue for your point of view? Do you REALLY want to stay with someone who’s not willing to run through open fields or fire to embrace you?

    Move on from this character. He’ll figure life out soon enough the hard way.

    Inky

    P.S. Don’t communicate with him for at least a year. When he comes to his senses, after a year, perhaps say patiently, “Are you done with this experience now, beloved?”

    #218571
    Kris
    Participant

    Hi Anita,

    I am studying primatology. I am pretty flexible in the jobs I would like; maybe research assistant, caretaker… anything I could work with animals, behavior, or conservation. Also, I was considering bank teller in the case I did not find anything close or permanent. He is  a sales construction. He loves his job.

    I was thinking to stay where I live or near before I met him. Now, I am not sure… Almost everything remembers me him. Now, I have to rethink again what I want and I should do, which it is difficult because I feel my life has not meaning, I feel miserable. Anyway, I have to stay at least until May 2019 for the apartment rent contract.

    On Saturday night we talked again. My conclusions about our conversation based on what I know about him and his past relationships is that he is not sure if I am his forever love and he does not feel commitment. For this he thinks he need to have more experience to know if it is right or not. This may take at least 3 years. He is scare about he is making a bad decision, but right now he does not feel commitment. However, he acknowledges that if his answer is that it was a bad decision, he probably has lost me because he doesn’t expect me to wait for him (and I hope I have get over him by that time).

    He has always felt inferior to me (he did not finish his bachelor). Since we started dating, he said he doesn’t understand why I am with him, that I am gorgeous and beautiful, that I am intelligent… (I consider myself a normal woman). But he thinks I deserve a good job because I am doing a Master and a better partner. I have always told him that is not true, he is an amazing person, that he is exaggeration how I am or how he sees me.

    It hurts a lot, but I think he needs to growth as person and he doesn’t know what he wants for his long-term life. He may feel he is retain me to growth professionally, which it is not necessary true…. We acknowledge that this relationship was the best in each our life and that each other is the person that we have love most. He told me he will be always for me, that I can call or text whenever I want.  We agreed to stay as friends, but we are going to wait a few weeks until try to communicate.

    I will try this friendship does not substitute our past relationship. I will try to not keep hopes. But I am scare that he moves out first than me and I could not handle he is with other. I don’t see when I will be able to forget him.

    Kris

    #218575
    Kris
    Participant

    Hi Inky,

    Yes, I think he is unconsciously using it as a reason because that things are fixable. I talked with him on Saturday night. Well, mostly my conclusions are in my reply for Anita. I may just add that when we have everything set up for the Italy travel (except book the hotels and flights) he confessed me he lied to me about his bachelor. He had told me he have a bachelor, but it was not true. Well, only his family know the true, but even his friends think he finished it. It seems for some evens, including the bad break-up with his last serious relationship before me) got him into a depression and he left the university. He want to finish it, but with his job he has not find time. Well, he did not tell me because he thought I was not going to want to date him because I was a Graduate student. He was thinking I was going to break-up with him that night, but I told him I was not happy that I lied to me but I understood what he did it. And I told I like him because how he is, not because his degree.

    Yes, when I talked with him I realized there was nothing I could do for change his mind. I am not the most objective person in this situation, but I think he is making a mistake and will regret it. But as you said he has to figure out for himself.

    I know I have to move on and focusing on me, but it is not that easy and I don’t see the end of my feelings for him. I would like to take a travel, but I don’t have any friend could come with me and I don’t know if I will dare to do alone and if it is a good idea go by myself.

    Kris

    #218617
    Kris
    Participant

    Update: yes, he left me because the compatibility. We were in the perfect relationship, but we were not the perfect couple. He wants to find a person that match better with him. He feels he treated me bad (maybe it has something true, but unconscious) and did not gave me a lot of time. He said it is not me, that I am perfect, but not the indicate for him. That one part of him will always loves me (but not a romantic love).

    I am his first long-term relationship, so maybe it is true he needs more experience to find what he wants in a relationship. He said there is a possibility he took the wrong decision, but needs to figure out by himself. But maybe it is the feeling of loss or the feeling you have when you took the decision to break-up. But it makes me feel better if I think we could have work like a couple, but he was not prepared in that moment and this situation happens… Anyways, I still feel as trash, I know he has the right to decide what it is better for his life, but still hurts a lot…. He thinks I will get over him before he gets over me, but I don’t see as it would be possible.

    #218635
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Kristi:

    You are going through the emotional devastation of a break up, the loss of man in your life to whom you are emotionally very attached to. It is a painful experience but fortunately, it is one that millions of people overcame and after which they found love again. You are likely to be one of these many millions.

    It only feels devastating but your life keeps going: there is your job and your studies, and there is a future yet unknown, joy you will still experience, love, togetherness. Later.

    For now, take it a day at a time, an hour at a time when you feel especially sad. Do little things to help yourself, go to the movies if you like that, or a walk in nature (WA has lots of nature!)

    And do post again, anytime.

    anita

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