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November 13, 2024 at 12:48 pm #439315JimParticipant
Hi there,
Many thanks in advance for reading this.
I previously posted here: https://tinybuddha.com/topic/i-dont-know-if-i-can-support-my-partners-mental-health-struggles/
Looking back on that post I’m proud and happy to say that my relationship with my girlfriend has improved a lot. We’ve moved in together and overall, though there are frequent wobbles, we are very much in love.
In recent months, I continue to go to therapy, whilst she has taken a break to finish her studies. I consider myself stable, working on my emotional intelligence and how to support her, but there continues to be a lot of challenges ahead for her. Her anxiety (which has PTSD at its roots, caused by severe difficulties during her childhood) is very very strong, most recently manifesting itself with continual fears about her health, as well as the stress of finishing her PhD.
She struggles to be alone, particularly when I am not at work, and we don’t have a lot of friends, which means I am her primary source of human contact and I often feel the strain of a full time job, housework and being there for her, leaving less time than I would wish for my own life, and an inability to spend time alone at short notice without upsetting her. At the same time, she is reluctant to mingle with many people due to health concerns, so we don’t often go out and socialize. Having said that, things are more often than not really nice and improving.
The very hardest part for sure for me is seeing her suffer and finding the hope of her recovery quite remote at times if I am honest. I want to experience so many things with her and for her to make things happen in her own life which are being denied by a cruel condition. I have tried to reintroduce the idea of therapy to her but she is disparaging of our former therapist, who has been open with me that she doesn’t believe my partner has reached a point where she is really ready to look recovery in the eye, believe it can happen and face up to the past to banish it forever. I am under no illusions that that single sentence could require years of concerted effort and support and will be so so hard. I do not take that for granted whatsoever. She is truly damaged deep down and very fragile. At the same time I fear the long arduous road myself. She tells me she will work in the future and I think that may help her but it may also be really hard. Beyond anything else, I need to see her commit to therapy and recovery, both for herself and for hope for parity and balance in the relationship as time goes on- there’s no doubt that I am currently bearing more of the burden of making a life together and that feels hard to envisage in the very long term. She is so smart, genuinely strong and has loving supportive people around her. She can do it. Day to day, though, she is very often just getting by.
This bring me to my current dilemma. I have made a significant sum of money through investments in the last few years but have never told her about it. Enough to buy a house, support her and probably, if well managed, so that neither of us have to work for the rest of our lives. I should add that I don’t wish to give up my job. I enjoy it, and I would probably cut down to two or three days a week and enjoy a slower pace of life, but still be a highly motivated and active person ideally pursuing creative projects on the side and trying to give back- I believe that’s what a responsible person should work towards. We won’t be having children. I would also like to travel more, as would my girlfriend, though I see that as difficult right now given her struggles. Also, there are differences between our attachment to things. Whilst not very materialistic, I think she would have no trouble spending a lot of the money, whilst I am very frugal and would prefer to give a lot of it away or use it to start a benevolent project.
As I have said though, the main focus for me is her recovery, so the main question I have is: <u>how can I manage my/our wealth and knowledge of it to best benefit my partner?</u>
- I am scared that if I reveal it, she will relax and believe she doesn’t need to work on recovery. I’m scared she will know she can expect me to support her and so not need do the work to get better. I am led to believe that unfortunately only pain is the real driver to recovery. Ultimately, she may well expect that I view it as an equal split in terms of our wealth, that she has rights to that support and that I should therefore provide.
- By no means will I refuse to support her (I currently pay most of our outgoings), but if it jeopardises her health I would be prepared to keep it secret for as long as it takes. However, she has begun to talk about us buying a house together, which I am also open to, but this presents a number of technical dilemmas. I have always said I will never lie to her, and I never really have. I’ve always told her my parents have given me my inheritance early, which is true (enough for a deposit on a house), but not that I invested that wisely and increased it many times over. If we come to buy, do I continue to conceal all the rest of the money?
- The revelation of the money will come as enough of a surprise. I already fear the reactions she may have
- Why have you lied to me?
- The question of when an appropriate time to tell your significant other that you are rich is not a simple one in itself. Clearly I wouldn’t have told her the day we met or even a month after. I’m a humble person. I wanted her to like me for me rather than what I have. Obviously, I am confident that she does now.
- A further caveat is that I wish for her to continue to keep it a secret- from I don’t like the idea of people knowing about it, but I’m still not entirely sure she could keep it a secret. I’ve never tested that. I think it’s a fair request. I’d rather not have it in the public domain.
- Why didn’t you tell me so that I could invest my savings too? And I could have told my family about how to do it…
- I have no wish to be a stocks and shares evangelist. I know how nervous she is and I’m sure she would possibly have lost everything in the markets. Still, am I being selfish? Don’t I have a right to privacy and not get leant on for investment advice that I couldn’t guarantee anyway?
- All this time you could have treated me better and covered all the bills. I’ve been stressed about money all of this time when I needn’t have been
- Don’t I have a right to a certain degree of privacy for a certain amount of time? The question here arises, fundamentally, how much exactly does one individual owe another in a relationship? It’s an awfully dirty concept, but surely we should strive for parity between the two parties. Clearly, anyone lucky enough to be in the position should support their partner, but ultimately shouldn’t we aim for a degree of balance, emotionally, time-wise, effort-wise, financially? I am already doing more around the house, paying for more and supporting her as best I can every day. As I say, I would happily pay for everything, but only in the knowledge that she can recover from her suffering. I feel like if she did that, things would be on a stabler footing. If they stay as they are, parity will feel a long way off. If they can, I feel a partner should provide food, shelter, warmth, health care and transport as a base. Alongside (if not above) that is emotional and mental security and wellbeing. Beyond that, I’m not sure anyone is obligated to provide material possessions they could afford but wouldn’t want. How much autonomy can I wish to claim without being selfish? As I say, in the main I want to help others after I’ve secured my partner and I.
- Why didn’t you tell me before? You owe me. Let’s go out and spend and make our lives great…
- As I’ve said, we have a different relationship with things. I have no compulsion to own a nice place, car or fancy stuff. Clearly, as soon as I reveal what I have, I transport us both to a different paradigm and I can’t be sure how she will become, especially if she feels wronged because I haven’t said anything. I have a lot of faith that it will be alright, but I can never take it back. She will always know I’m a millionaire and may become increasingly frustrated if I’d rather plan to give it to charity than spend it on her. She may even likely adopt it as a fear of not being adequately cared for in the future, despite that not being realistic. It relates to the above: what do I owe her? Obviously, I will provide security, but I’m reluctant to commit beyond that.
- The question of when an appropriate time to tell your significant other that you are rich is not a simple one in itself. Clearly I wouldn’t have told her the day we met or even a month after. I’m a humble person. I wanted her to like me for me rather than what I have. Obviously, I am confident that she does now.
- Why have you lied to me?
I will leave it at that. Any advice or points of view anyone can offer would be very much appreciated. Clearly it’s not an easy set of dilemmas. When she does learn of my assets it will certainly have a profound effect and I want to try to understand how that might pan out and how I can best make sure it helps her to the fullest extent.
Also, if anyone can suggest councillors, advisors, books or other resources who might help me, I’d be awfully grateful.
Lots of love. Thanks for reading.
November 13, 2024 at 9:27 pm #439385HelcatParticipantHi Jim
I’m glad to hear that your relationship has improved some. But I’m sorry to hear that your partner has discontinued with therapy.
I’m glad that you are being a good example for her and continuing with your own therapy.
It seems to me that your concern is for your partner’s mental health. I agree that sharing about the money isn’t helpful as it might hinder her already stalled recovery.
You are right in that these things do take years. I have C-PTSD from childhood and it took me years of therapy to recover from.
I didn’t really see pain as a motivation for recovery. I think it actually keeps you in that deep dark hole personally. Kindness is a motivation for recovery. And hoping that recovery is possible in the first place, trusting that there is someone out there who can help you is paramount.
If you think of pain as a protective mechanism that is more accurate in my opinion. Change is unknown and scary. The pain she currently knows is “safe” and avoidance provides a level of comfort and protection from things that she is afraid of. Yet, the more she avoids them the deeper that fear becomes.
She needs the help of a trauma specialist. This kind of help is specialised and very expensive. When she is ready to try again use your resources to help her. It is the job of someone who specialises in trauma to help people who heal from these things everyday. It is an art of its own. Recovery is possible, but she has to be willing to try and let someone help her.
I wish you both the best of luck!
Love and best wishes! ❤️🙏
November 14, 2024 at 12:50 pm #439397anitaParticipantDear Jim:
Back on Feb 1 this year, you shared that your partner has been abusing you every 2 or 3 weeks: “She feels insecure… SO much that it frequently (on average every 2 or 3 weeks) leads to an event where she simply cannot control her fear of being left or abandoned for one reason or another and this results in long bouts of crying, screaming and abuse towards me. She calls it ‘blind anger’, says it rarely happened before me… I’m a very placid and nonconfrontational person, patient and gentle“-
– is this still happening at any particular frequency? I am concerned that you may be.. a very placid and nonconfrontational… patient and gentle victim of domestic abuse?
Or has the abuse cease? I think that the issue of abuse should be addressed and resolved before anything else.
anita
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