Hello Anita, sorry for super late response. I’ve been on Tiny Buddha but not logged in. Well to be honest I’m kinda great. Tommorow I was supposed to fly to Madrid to see a friend but thanks to mother it got cancelled, because I would miss 4 days in hospital. Even though I’m probably being released next week and I’m feeling good for three weeks now. I have awesome room mates. It’s pretty fun here and I’m definitely gonna miss those guys. I’m still full of uncertainties with future and sometimes feeling exhausted from things I have to do, but I don’t feel like doing anything at all. I’m making huge progress in my model rocket project, but it’s still just modelling and theory, can’t wait to get out of here and start building. The Madrid made a bit sad but I bounced bad to good mood in day or two, doctors said that they expected me to break down from it, it was kinda harsh from them. Also I’m just realizing this post might be very weird, because I’m just writing, not thinking, but I won’t write it again. Spontaneouity at it’s best. I also signed up for half marathon two weeks from now, I don’t know if I can run it, but that’s the fun part, no? We will see .so in short, my future is bleak and pretty disastrous, but now I’m feeling happy. Like a kid with a new toy.

Yeah. I hope I’ll be able to handle it well, but that’s far away. I cannot plan that. There is no outpatient program, but I still have my psychotherapist, so that’s a plus. I’ll have to find a better way how to handle thing with Mom, but we’ll see