Hi Samuel,
I was in your place once, when life seemed overwhelming, and I felt like I had no prospects, stuck and helpless. Here’s something that’s helped me a lot over the years.

1) I made a list of everything I find joy in, similar to what you did
2) I put together (on paper) a dream job for myself, if I had my way.
3) And then I tried to detail out the steps I’d need to take to create my dream job. The series of steps I need to bridge the gap between where I was to where I want to be
4) Each day, I’d take one step toward it. If the one step felt too big, I’d break it down into many small steps; if the small steps seemed too big, I’d break them down into tinier steps. The point is that it’s important to take that first step to create momentum, and then continue taking baby steps toward your goal. Each step is a positive move towards a better life. You can course-correct as you go, if you change your mind along the way.

When you approach life with positivity, that energy builds up, giving more and more power to what you put your energy into. (And the opposite is true too – if you put energy into the fears and anxieties you have about feeling trapped, you’ll feel even more trapped.) So try to stop thinking about everything that’s wrong with your life, and start thinking about what you can do to make it feel right.

Make your journey beautiful! Make every day matter 🙂

Oh my gosh, I could have written this post. Let me tell you about me first.

I’m 25. Have worked for a major UK coffee chain since 2006 when I was 16 while I was doing uni and stuff, became assistant manager. This time last year left because I was sick of it, long hours, serving rude people, being a general dogsbody, I’m sure you know what I mean. Worked 2 crap jobs and just over one week ago have found myself back in my old store, agreeing to take my old assistant manager job back. I feel depressed, useless, hopeless, overwhelmed and completely like there is no point to anything with no way out, ever. I’ve been doing this for almost 10 years!. trust me when I say I know what you’re going through. I don’t want to do this job either. I don’t want to be a cleaner, floor sweeper, take crap from people but don’t have any other options at the moment.

My advice would be to firstly not give in. I know its a hard job but the more experience the better.
Think about what skills you have learnt. I know that delegation is crap and you can do a better job alone standing on your head but being able to manage people is a valuable skill. I’m sure there are loads of others like organisation, balancing stock etc
Start looking. You won’t find another job unless you’re looking for one. However I would suggest not jumping on the bandwagon. I hated the first job I had because I went for the first one that gave me an interview and ended up in insurance!
Think about what you might like to do and focus your efforts on getting there. And focus on the positive, you have a goal to reach, to get your boyfriend over here. Let that be your motivation. You say you have nothing to offer but you don’t get to manager easily, it’s a tough job.

If you want to talk more message me because I know EXACTLY what you’re going through. (I happen to be having an ok day today which is why I could write a positive post)