I broke up with my boyfriend exactly a week ago. I have been thinking about ending it for a very long time (over a year) because he is abusive. I would usually be heartbroken after being broken up with him for so long but I don’t. I think I have grown a lot and know my worth finally, so it is easier for me to let go. I feel calm, happy, and like myself again. But I also feel some other emotions that I am a little unsure of.

I feel guilty because I know my boyfriend is in a lot of pain. He has been texting me about how hurt he is. I have replied to a few of his many texts, but I only said things such as “I’m sorry this is the best decision for me” and “I will always be here to support you if you need it.” But I still feel guilty for causing him so much pain. I think I am able to understand his pain because I once felt an extreme amount of pain when we broke up in the past. I felt hopeless, depressed, lifeless, etc… I don’t want that for him. That’s why I told him I will always be there for him. I don’t want him to feel like he is losing me as a friend. I told him that he can still depend on me for advice, support, and friendship but we are not in a relationship anymore. Right now I have him blocked from texting me in order for him to be able to move on.

I also feel confused because I used to feel so much pain when we broke up. Now I feel calm and emotionless. Why? It is confusing me and I am not sure how to feel…

Sorry if this post doesn’t make any sense, I just need someone else’s opinion. Why do I feel this way? Is what I am doing right? What should I do from now on? The future seems so ambiguous and nerve-wracking… I am worried that I will eventually go back to him when that isn’t the right thing to do.

• This topic was modified 6 years ago by Katie.