My boyfriend and I broke up recently. We were long-distance but we met in real life on a camp. We decided to stick together after getting back to our towns. It was 1,1h of driving by public transport and not expensive at all. Everything was great at the beginning but then he said to me that he’s going to move to another town on his own will because his mom is returning from Italy and he finally wants to live with her after 11 years. His parents are divorced so it is the only option. I knew it will be destructive for us because meeting will be hard, driving third times longer and we probably can’t afford it. We are only seventeen. I asked him if he still see us together after it and he said a definite “yes” but I was like “no” then “yes” and then “I don’t know”. I think that’s when things in mine and his head started to be messed up. When I got back home I started crying about it but I tried to believe that I should get used to it, we’ll be older when he will do it and everything will be allright. Then I remember that he acted very strange and became distant. He started drinking for few days in a row and drunk texting me how much he loves me. Then we barely had contact and he was responding only once a day. I was scared about what’s happening but he said that everything will be okay and he’s just dealing with some personal issues. We had an episode while he didn’t wanted to meet me, he said that he doesn’t have money but also disagreed while I said that I can visit him. Then after a bigger fight he decided to finally meet me saying that he earned some money and it was very emotional kind of meeting, he comforted me while I was shaking and feeling bad. He said that he’s sorry and after that we were better than before, we learned new good habits but something still wasn’t right. Like he wasn’t sure if he wants to be there. One day he told me that he can’t sleep at night because he’s scared that he’ll lose me and what we have. He kind of “hided” most things connected with his mother and moving. Like didn’t said me that she finally moved to our country and I needed to take a guess about it. I started to feel angry about it because how I am going to trust him if he’s not telling me important details about his life? One day I got so pissed that I wrote something that I shouldn’t and it hurted him. He responded angry to me that his mom really matters to him and he will move anyways (I didn’t said a thing about moving). Then he stopped talking to me for two weeks saying he needs time and then I asked if we can meet and talk and he responded that he thinks that there is no point in talking and I know it was a breakup. I can tell that texting me is very hard for him. I wrote a goodbye message about how much I want for him to be happy now, start a new life in a new place without me pulling him down and how awesome I think he is. He didn’t even said “goodbye”. I’m pretty sure that it’s his moving what divided us and we both didn’t had the guts to be straightforward for a long time. He gave me so much happiness and I still feel a connection with him that didn’t end up broken. Is it even possible to move on when you still love someone so much and you can’t blame anything at all? It’s easy to get over a breakup when you know that your partner was a dick but what when you just let him go to be happy? I don’t know how to deal with it. At first I felt happy for him and for myself but now I just feel empty about what happened to two people who meant the whole world for each other. Friends tell me that there’s a possibility that we’ll end up together someday but if even, I know that I need to move on because we are too hurt to even have a simple conversation now.