II’m 16 and I’m struggling and I don’t really know why. I’ve spent my whole life living on a family run golf course in the country and I hate it with a passion. Most of my problems always seem to lead back to our golfcourse. I feel like I have missed out on my childhood and I am wasting the rest of it. I have always just wanted to live in a neighborhood in town like the rest of my friends. So many things about this place are holding me back. I’ve grown a passion for biking which is one of the things that keeps me going in life. But I think the only reason I love biking is because it gets me away from this place. I’ve always tried to isolate myself from the golf course and all of my family members see me as the boring anti social one just because I would rather eat dinner at my house instead of the clubhouse like everyone else. This place makes me miserable.

I feel different from everyone else in my family. I hope that it’s just me being a stereotypical angsty teenager but I often think that may not be the case. Over the last several months I tried to make some changes by getting a girl friend, a job, a new haircut, a style change, and a gym membership. Here I sit still unhappy though… The only time I’m ever truly happy is when I’m at school with my friends because I feel like I can be my true self. I’m a completely different person when I’m with my friends. At school I’m an extrovert but as soon as I get off the bus in the afternoon, I become scrooge. it’s not that my family is terrible, it’s just that I’m constantly uncomfortable around them. It wasnt until I started spending more time with my girlfriends family that I realised something was definitely wrong in my life. I see her whole family hitting it off together as if they were all college roommates and then I go home and my mood is instantly dropped. It just feels so awkward around my family. I sit up in my room for most of the time when I’m not biking. this sucks and I don’t know what to do. Why is it that all of my friends who I envy so much are all coming out as “deoressed” and what not? I would take what they have in a heart beat. Why am I the only unhappy person in my family? I just don’t get it. Help me please.