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  • #409031
    anita
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    Dear Caroline:

    Good to read back from you,  you are welcome, and I like this huge smiley face, it just made me smile back at it.

    “I already behaved in non-passive way several times, maybe it’s not a lot but I know something has changed in me”- congrats, and from my personal experience, there is no such thing as a little when it comes to this kind of practice: every opportunity to practice is as big as any other.

    The other girl who works here says it is becoming a problem and that ‘he would destroy everyone and he is a sociopath‘”- stay away and keep away from him, I say.

    I want to be more brave“- you already are braver than you used to be. With practice, you will be even braver, one day at a time, no pressure!

    I noticed since I do not pressure myself to do something creative, I have more pleasure spending the day whichever way I choose“- no pressure=> no displeasure. Remember this… and practice NP (No Pressure!)

    anita

    #409032
    Caroline
    Participant

    Anita,

    Good to hear from you too.

    Sorry about the biiiiig smiley face! If it made you smile back – then I am happy too but no idea how this happened to be this big, ha ha 🙂

    no pressure=> no displeasure. Remember this… and practice NP (No Pressure!)

    This will be my motto for many days now 🙂

    Have a great day! (or night, depends on what is your time zone)

    #409034
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Caroline:

    I figured that you didn’t intend to have the smiley face so big and that you may feel badly about it, that’s why I added that I liked it- which is true. I too used to feel badly about any mistake I made, even mistakes of no consequence.. or mistakes of positive consequence, like this one. I like your motto, thank you,  and have a great day yourself (it is Tues 12:52 pm here)!

    anita

    #409035
    Tee
    Participant

    Dear Caroline,

    Unfortunately I ended up not doing anything productive this week but I what I did is took a bike few times to go to the supermarket and thus spent some active quality time

    You go to work every day, which is productive… don’t count that as nothing! You deserve to rest and relax, without making  yourself feel guilty…. So just enjoy it, as much as you can! In other words, No Pressure! 🙂

    As for the smiley: you quoted a paragraph of mine, which ended with a smiley. When you put a smiley in quotation marks, it shows up huge (I guess it’s an error in the script). I know it because I’ve already experienced unintentionally big smileys 🙂 So I guess the best solution is to omit the emoticons from the text you’re quoting…

     

    #409037
    Caroline
    Participant

    Tee,

    thanks for explaining, good to know it happens here 🙂

    You go to work every day, which is productive… don’t count that as nothing

    You are right!

    Thank you for responding, good to hear from you.

    Take care 🙂

    #409038
    Tee
    Participant

    You’re welcome, Caroline. Good talking to you too!

    Take care and take it easy 🙂

    #410207
    anita
    Participant

    How are you, Caroline?

    anita

    #410228
    Caroline
    Participant

    Hello Anita, I am Ok. I saw your message yesterday and still thinking, looking for right words. I decided to just reply. Thank you for checking up on me. It has been okay mostly. I visited one of my colleague recently, had a really good time (she lives in another city).

    I am trying to learn how to have healthy relationships with people but it always ends with me feeling used or taken advantage of.. and being angry or them leaving me for some reason. (I see this pattern with my mom’s friendships, relationships, also people in my family have let me down several times. I grew up in hostile environment – family, school etc). It now has led me to distrusting people at the very beginnings of knowing them which I hate myself for. So it has been tough as well.

    #410230
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Caroline:

    You are welcome, good to read back from you! And it is good to read that you are okay and that you had a really good time visiting a work colleague.

    I saw your message yesterday and still thinking, looking for right words“- you don’t have to be very careful here: you can type your words for me without much care because I will not punish you for wrong wording. I know that you have a good heart and therefore, you don’t have to… use perfect words and perfect sentences.

    I am trying to learn how to have healthy relationships with people but it always ends with me feeling used or taken advantage of, and being angry, or them leaving me for some reason“-

    On Oct 22, I wrote to you: “Unfortunately, old perspectives and old thinking are remarkably persistent because they are habitual… your old thinking will not disappear just because new thinking appeared… the old thinking will automatically return. You will have to repeat the new perspective and new thinking until these become your new habit”.

    The old perspectives include what you described today. It takes time to form new thought habits and new behavioral habits, such as behaving assertively with people (the faking-it-till-you-make it, which we discussed previously).

    It now has led me to distrusting people at the very beginnings of knowing them which I hate myself for“- you closed your Oct 21 post with: “I will be more kind to myself– hating yourself is not kind. Whenever you feel hate for yourself, turn to empathy. For example, when you notice distrustful thoughts about people at the very beginning of meeting them, and feeling self-hate for that distrust, think to yourself something like: I must have been so hurt by people… I was so hurt by people, this is why I developed distrust. See yourself as a hurt, little Caroline and feel compassion for her.

    With compassion to Caroline and change of habits, you will develop healthy enough relationships with healthy enough people (I say enough because no person and no relationship is perfectly healthy).

    anita

    #410232
    Caroline
    Participant

    Anita, I wanted to say I was thinking a lot about our talks lately and that I am very grateful we have those here. Again thank you for this and for reaching out.

    you don’t have to be very careful here: you can type your words for me without much care because I will not punish you for wrong wording.

    That is very kind. Of course, I would never think you would be angry or disappointed with my bad wording, yet I do not want to seem like I miss any of your valuable thoughts.

    hating yourself is not kind. Whenever you feel hate for yourself, turn to empathy.

    I still fail to be kind to myself. I think about that you wrote and then I forget to use it in life. Still thinking about myself as a fraud. I think I need time.

    I feel less passive in general, though, more grounded. Learning to have my opinion, to be critical.

    How are you, Anita?

     

    #410236
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Caroline:

    You are welcome and thank you for your appreciation and kind words! I am fine, thank you, the weather here has been so pleasantly unusual for this time of the year: sunny, bright blue skies, it’s a mood elevator.

    I do not want to seem like I miss any of your valuable thoughts“- I used to expect perfection from myself: to respond to every single thing someone says to me (so that they don’t feel ignored and get angry), to word myself perfectly (so that…again, others will not get angry at me). This expectation brought me so much misery because I repeatedly failed to be perfect, and every failure felt like proof that I was indeed severely inadequate and inferior to others.

    And all along, perfections has been impossible: impossible for me as well as for any other human being.

    Still thinking about myself as a fraud. I think I need time“- what kinds of thoughts in regard to being a fraud did you have lately, and in what circumstances, if I may ask?

    I feel less passive in general, though, more grounded. Learning to have my opinion, to be critical“- excellent, Caroline, you are doing well!

    anita

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