Recently, i found out that my friends at work are not really friends. What happened was that there are 6 of us and the game can only accommodate 4 people at one time. They took turn playing the game the whole day and had fun, but they left me out. I felt really sad. It was then that i realise that my value as a friend is not as much as i thought it would be. If i was really valuable, then they would have invited me to play. Everyday when i go to my workplace, they would start playing the game and have fun. This makes me feel sad everyday. I tried to fight this conditioning of mine and accept this fact. But i can’t truly accept the fact as i really wish for them to care and be sensitive towards me as a friend. I keep getting overwhelmed by so many negative thoughts which is a result of my conditioning. Please, how do i move??
“my friends at work.. took turn playing the game the whole day”- your friends at work play a game the whole day.. don’t they work?
They played a game and left you out. It is always hurtful to be left out, be it when we are children or old people: no one likes to be left out.
“I tried to fight this conditioning of mine and accept this fact“- can you define the word conditioning (in the context of the topic of your thread) and state the fact that you are referring to in this sentence?