Hi all,
I am new here and feel like I am having a mid life crisis as I approach 40 years old in a few months. I have a wife of 9 years and two young children. I work full time as a public servant in the government and I have never felt so lost.
I am socially awkward, I lack confidence, I am full of self doubt and feel like I could be doing more with my life but I have no idea WHAT! I only have high school education and for the last 22 years of bouncing around from job to job I have avoided mostly doing anything that makes me uncomfortable because I don’t enjoy being challenged, I have no ambition or drive and want to just cruise through life just under the radar.
In recent years I have felt myself getting dumber, I get so intimidated whenever people smarter than me talk and it brings me down constantly. My home life is fine and that makes me happy but my professional life is a different story, I cannot be myself at work no matter what job I may be in. I just want to be happy and true to myself (what I am trying to figure out still).
Currently I am on antidepressants which help with my anxiety and I am seeing a psychotherapist on a weekly basis.
I just need to vent.
Thanks
BJ