Over the weekend, I made the mistake of drinking a little too much, and as a result, I passed out in a street downtown and was taken to the hospital by EMS (everything was alright, I just was a bit drunk nothing serious). I have personally accepted full responsibility for what I did, came clean to my parents, etc. But I feel so ashamed deep down. I am trying to let go of this feeling that I have that because I did this, I am “troubled”, which is a view I am fearing of viewing myself as and that others see me as. I just keep wishing I didn’t do what I did, especially because that one night is the only night something of this magnitude has happened. Please help.
It’s unfortunate that you passed out on the street and not in your bed. I have friends who pass out several times a year, but they’re just lucky that they didn’t pass out all alone in the middle of the street. When this happens we just get them home or lay them on a couch or something. You simply had bad luck, ok?
The fact that you are troubled by this means that you think this was not good for you and not good for your image. Take comfort in the fact that you are mature enough to see that you don’t want this to happen again. Shit happens, nothing to be ashamed for 😉
Shame is a very painful feeling. It should not last long, that is, after you figure what behavior you disapprove of, resolve to correct that behavior and then correct it, the shame should go away. Often, unfortunately, shame lingers and expands. I hope this is not the case with you.
I hope it isn’t because when shame stays and is no longer about correcting behaviors you disapprove of, it harms.
Which is the case with you, do you think: is your shame about correcting this certain behavior or is it bigger than this one behavior and earlier than this weekend?
Thank you both so much for your replies! It has been a while since the incident, and I am on the path to recovery. Meditation has helped me get through this a LOT and I realize that making mistakes is simply part of the journey. Holding onto these emotions will hold me back, so all I can do right now is take action, and for that I have decided to give up alcohol. Thank you both for your wisdom as I was reading your responses within the past week and they were really soothing.