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My BF of 2.5 years divorce just came through and I feel totally irrelevant

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    Smilefizz
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    Long story short…

    I met a guy who was 1.5 years into separation and divorce proceedings. He has 3 kids and I have one and I knew he was really messed up about it all. We’ve had a really passionate relationship for two and a half years and have had several breakups because of me not trusting him for various reasons and we always ended up back together.

     

    I love him him to death and have never seen myself settle with anyone before and I’ve been proposed to three times. I’m 33 and he’s 39. My son and his son are like brothers and I love his kids like they were my own. I’d been brought into the fight with the ex several times and feel I have always been there for him. It took a long time for him to want to talk about any kind of future and I put this down to what he has gone through with here which is honestly horrendous. We broke up about it before because I felt like I was wasting my time. We were apart for four months last summer and both met other people but still loved each other deeply and decided to try and give it another go.

    Things have been different this time, he’s been talking about the future more, saying he wants to spend his life with me, to grow old with me. He seemed to have lost this year that he had about commitment, and I finally felt like we were getting somewhere. Although marriage was always a touchy subject for him, but I do want to get married. This is my first time around. I didn’t save myself to be a 40 yr old girlfriend. Anyway finally this week his divorce was made final.  He had talked about this day for years saying when this day comes everything will be okay everything will be better …. I was expecting him to come home from court and run into my arms and for us to just be in ecstasy because we finally were through it. But this is quite the opposite of what happened.

     

    Instead he came back (after going for dinner alone) and was on the phone for a long time  with various different people. He didn’t really talk to me, he just came and had sex with me and Then became really distracted again. I felt totally irrelevant and pushed away. He didn’t even ask how I was feeling about the whole thing. It’s like I was just a distraction.  I feel so hurt about it, and I can’t even talk to him about it because he just gets defensive. He is a very intelligent man but he pretends to be stupid when it comes to things like this at times.

    When we broke up in the summer he kept a journal every day writing about his heart ache in the most deepest way, really thought-provoking stuff which he showed me after we got back together. I was really pleased to see that he went to those levels that he normally keeps covered.

    No I’m in total limbo. I thought I was in limbo before. Now it feels like he doesn’t have his shitstorm divorce as an excuse to hide behind to not be openly serious with me. ☹️ I’m feeling pretty heartbroken and used right now. What do I do?? I’m a good girl, I look after him and love him so much. I’m loyal and would never hurt him or break his trust. I think of him first and always go out of my way for him. I love his kids like they were my own and see a future with all of them. But I’m not a mug.

     

    Please if anyone has any advice i would be so grateful. Thanks

    #275493
    Anonymous
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    Dear Smilefizz:

    I am not surprised he didn’t come back from court, after his long drawn divorce was finally finalized, happy into your arms, ready and willing to marry you, or any woman in your place.

    Even if he thought to himself and shared it with you, that “when this day comes everything will be okay everything will be better”, it is not necessarily how it feels when following years of an ugly divorce, involving three children, the divorce is finalized. Years of turmoil and pain don’t disappear and the man’s heart is cleared and ready for a new love, a new marriage, beginning  yet again… at the beginning.

    You wrote in your first paragraph that the two of you “had several breakups because of me not trusting him for various reasons”- can you elaborate  on those various reasons?

    I need to be away from the computer for the next sixteen hours or so. I will be glad to read more from you when I am back and reply to  you further.

    anita

    #275495
    Mark
    Participant

    Smilefizz,

    One of the rules of starting a relationship is not to date until each party is done with their previous relationship.  The time to date is one year after the divorce is final/papers signed, not after separation.  You are experiencing the fallout from not doing this.  But that’s water under the bridge.

    It would be interesting to know what were the reasons of distrust that caused the breakups before?  This should give you a clue as well on why he is behaving the way he is.

    It sounds like you two are living together?  And that means your son and his children are living together as well?

    Did he ever agree to marry you once the divorce is final?

    Mark

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