February 21, 2014 at 5:48 am #51505ramandeep singhParticipant
Hi I am a human Male 27 from earth, I live with my family in the countryside, I was used to beaten up by father sometimes in when I was young, I lost my mom when I was in fifth grade, she was ill she had some disease, and my father who is a homeopathy doctor started taking sleeping pills in day times and become frustrated in life and I started sucking is study so he started beating Me but eventually things became easy on him and he stopped taking pills after some time, but I keep sucking at my studies and I wasn’t good in anything I sometimes had feeling what is my worth, I think these are the reason I became shy, I sometimes try to blame my dad, but he had his own problems, once I saw rocky I had seen all parts and In last part when father tell his son that I expected you to be a good son and all and how his sons blame his dad and all although my father aren’t any body famous but still I can relate anyway I donno why I am writing about movie anyway, he got married again and my step mom is ok, and we don’t have any big family problems
Well after my studies I wanted to do computer course which was very costly and I being a big failure in everything thought my father wouldn’t let me, but he did allow me to join, I did good, I wasn’t a failure any more, I was quite good actually, I got a job in city as a web designer and I keep doing it but all the time I wanted a gf I never had one, I became desperate in those days a girl joined in my office, and I felt a kinda connection with her, and even everybody else like my co-worker felt we have, I thought she likes me, I used talk to her after work, and long chatting and texts on mobile and I became so sure that she loves me and all I even asked her if she has someone in her life and she said no and my hope were very high and all, but after some time I found out she was involve with some guy but guy’s parents wasn’t ready for marriage and all and then I thought if she is involved than I should let it go, it was all fine for some days, and but then I kind of became crazy, and I became possessive and insisting, even I knew she had someone still I wanted her and one day when she was with her bf I kept calling her and she wouldn’t pick up but I kept calling her and she became irritated and sent me a text saying get lost and all so next day I went to office I told my boss that I am resigning for some family reasons and I have to take care of my family business and I resigned just like that, I gave up my carrier, and I called to my dad and told him they fired me and I don’t wanna work in the city I am coming home, its been three years since I am taking care of my family business, I don’t feel for her anymore..
now days life has became dull I don’t have any friends and I don’t have any aim I just come to my shop in morning and then I go back in evening like in a loop, and most of the time I am free, no work just sitting and sitting, every day 7 days a week, sometimes I watch movies some time I read, but then there comes the time I don’t want to read or watch movies and then I wonder what is life all about…. What to do with my time when I am free, I feel like I should get very busy like no time for anything, just Wake up be very busy then go home late and sleep….
If you want you can suggest what to do in my free time…. And your life experiencesMarch 1, 2014 at 3:13 am #52041ainkaParticipant
Hi i should ask u first how r u, u seem to b a good guy at heart but there is loneliness in ur heart, u think u will choose people who will fill that loneliness for u, but it doent work like that, u have to love everyone and everything in life only then life will open up to u. so what u want to do in ur free time? try to love and care for people who come ur way, weather its in ur shop or else care for little children, old people adopt a pet, make friends atleast talk to people .
u will not know when love wud open ur doors and u wlll be in love again with life and then u will find ur love.
Best wishes.March 1, 2014 at 9:12 am #52055ramandeep singhParticipant
Thanx ainka… thanks a lot.
It’s really a great advice 🙂 n I am definitely on it!March 2, 2014 at 2:47 am #52070ainkaParticipant
best wishes to u