Hello, I’m 23 y/o woman. Growing up I wasnt very confident at all. I think i started having body dysmorphia issues since 5th grade. Although throughout the years my confidence has gone thru a roller coaster. I took up yoga about 6 years ago and thats been the best decision of my life. Around 2015-2016 I was at the peak of my confidence/health. (I love fashion and dressing up). In 2017 however I had a horrible rough year including my dad passing away and lots of other crazy stuff. After that ive been having stress and anxiety non stop. Although this year has changed for the better. Ive been with my bf since 2016, and i was a different person then. I was so lovey dovey and all over him (in the bedroom esp). Nowadays no such thought goes thru my mind and Id rather jus hangout and watch movies together. He thinks its bc himself that I’m not in the mood, but honestly its just me not feeling good with myself to let myself go like that. Whenever he brings it up I just get so upset bc I dont want to loose him bc of lack of excitement in our relationship, or him looking somewhere else. We love each other very much, and I still love him a lot, but I just dont like to get intimate anymore. I dont know what to do. I think it has to do with my body dysmorphia bc since my dads passing I have gained a lot of weight, and have been doin my best to loose it but its a process.