Hi Christy
I don’t think I would have been strong enough to experience the type of ego death you had.
My journey tends to be through books and I misunderstood the process and instead of healthy detachment ended up in indifference and depression. It’s a subtle difference learning how to fully enter life experience without attaching one’s sense of identity as being the experience.
Today I would say that for me its not so much an ego death but about establishing a relationship with the ego. Noticing when an attachment of the ego to an experience is taking me for a ride.