Hello everyone, its been a small while since I have written here though I think I seem to say that every time I make a new post.

Let’s get right to it. As I have expressed in my previous posts I now live with my parents after moving out of a house with my now ex-boyfriend. Seemingly, this is the only choice I have at the moment, I live in a very expensive state and the amount of rental houses in my area/reliable roommates to find is slim to none. Thus here I am stuck at my parents house. I find myself dreading coming home everyday I am off of work or coming home from being out with friends. I am unsure what to do because I love my parents dearly but feel as if I am at a point in my life where I need my own space and privacy, I am 22 not to mention.

My parents know every single move I make, and I cannot stand it anymore. They have my location on their phones, which I think is ridiculous as I am no longer a child, yet when I have went to turn it off or have a conversation about them no longer having it, it always turns into some huge deal. They say that they are just worried about me and would like to know where I am in case of emergency. Despite this explanation, they still demand to know every single move I make, who I’m with, where I am going, how long I’ll be gone, etc. I feel as if the location sharing is something of a comfort to them as it is, and I feel like a teenager again with them knowing my every move.

This is where it get’s difficult, as I have written before, my mother tends to be very dissaproving of every single interaction I have with men. Wether this be casual, or in a relationship. Last post I made, I lied to my mother about having a casual relationship with a man, and this ended in dramatics. She ended up leaving for a whole week to go to her friend’s house, and then came back like seemingly nothing happened. I am wanting to go out and have relations with men, as I am young and in my 20s, but every single time I want to go out I feel the need to lie about what I am doing now. I also can’t go to places or to houses that they don’t recognize when viewing my location, because then they will blow up my phone asking who I am with etc.

To clarify, I am not a deadbeat doing illicit activity or doing anything more than having fun and going out and living my life outside of their home, but this seems to be the problem to them. I am working 2 jobs, 40+ hours, and going to college part-time. Even the smallest things in my life I feel that I have no privacy in, my mother does not even knock before she walks into my room.

I feel stuck and hopeless and like I will be living the life of a teenager until I find some miracle that will help me move out of their house. I am stuck between lying about where I am going and inevitably getting caught and yelled at, or being truthful about where I am going and still getting yelled at and reprimanded like a child. I am unsure what to do and can’t seem to find any escape from this place. Every time I leave the house its “where are you going?” Even if it’s just the smallest errand I have to go run. I don’t understand and I don’t know what to do. thanks for reading