July 24, 2013 at 4:14 pm #39139PryingMiMiParticipant
Wow! So it has been an entire month since I found out about TinyBuddha. TinyBuddha has been a place for me to kinda exhale mentally. Right now I still have so many questions about me and I’m finally starting to just be okay with that. I’m 18 years old, and I know there is going to be a lot of questions I have about life and me, and I’m trying to be more loving to me. Sometimes I have a bad day, or don’t know my purpose and feel a little lost, so I listen to Cyndi Lauper ‘True Colors’ because that song helps me make sense of what I go through. One issue that Im still battling is being accepting to crying. I always taught that to cry means I am being overly-sentimental etc., and I guess I’m trying to make sense of my emotions at this point in my life. You know how most people goal at my age would be to save up for their first car? Well my goal is to be spiritually content with ‘me’. Sometimes I wake up feeling worthless or pointless, and those thoughts mixed with my conscience telling me I’m being overly dramatic, can make matter worst. Maybe I overanalyze everything too, I’m unsure if that’s just me or if it is a part of growing up. I have a lot of questions…July 24, 2013 at 4:54 pm #39141MattParticipant
Its very common and usual to have emotions come up in the body! I love to cry, and find it to be a great release. Afterward I am tired, but peaceful. Don’t be ashamed of emotions, they are an incredible guide and teacher. Sometimes if the mind says “don’t feel this, this is dumb” then its just suppressing the truth of what MiMi is in that moment. Its like trying to stuff too many clothes in a closet… the mind says “don’t let it out” and so it tries to shove against the door to keep it closed. How exhausting!
Instead we can just open up and let it out. That’s when we become wise, because we know who we are and how we feel. Whether its wanting to cry or feeling attracted to white guys, its OK to be just who you are. In fact, what else could you be? We all have a unique path to joy, and it is through accepting our likes and dislikes that we walk that path.
Don’t forget to play! Sometimes we want to “know what it all means” and “figure myself out” so much that we forget to let the inner child come out. Then things become dreary and serious, instead of light and fun. This is an incredible world we get to walk around and dance within, don’t forget to have fun!
MattJuly 24, 2013 at 7:26 pm #39144PryingMiMiParticipant
You know, I have become so desensitized to believe that it is wrong to cry, or that when a person cries, they are sad. Sometimes I cry out of pure joy, excitement or surprise. Youre absolutely right, suppressing the truth can become very overwhelming and exhausting– I guess I have gotten to the point of exhaustion. Being scared of what makes me comfortable is the hardest battle I have been fighting for a while but it can be combated! In through being so over-analytical of life, I forgot to have fun. I forgot how important it is just to be care-free and just be! You spoke very encouraging words, and for that I thank you!!!!!August 20, 2013 at 10:08 pm #40892luisParticipant
We live in a mysterious world. Some people might spend their lifetimes trying to understand it, but I believe the only “reason” we were put on this earth is to find about ourselves, to get closer to our true nature in which your realize that you are nothing and everything at the same time. Embrace your feelings, feel them, let them come in and come out. Your feelings and everything else your see are your teachers. The only way to be at peace is to accept yourself and don’t deny anything your feel or want. Admire the beauty in you MiMi. =))