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    Lukas
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    Hello community,

     

    I am New to this and quiet shy about this, i am practicing meditation and Zen since a long time and apparently i am horrible at it.

    I have a strong thought of conflict with my Business Partner, i go through it often a Day it eats me up, it nourishes Anger, jealousy and greed in me, but i cannot dissolve it. I am very fortunate and i have everything i need, but i cant seem to nourish my gratitute for what i have and i am moving towards ending the whole cooperation with my Business Partner – who is also my brother.

    I dont know anymore how to let go of the greed, Anger and jealousy which gets me dissapointed at myself.

    I cant seem to break the cycle.

     

    I would be tremendously happy for advice, Things to meditate on or any pointing of a direction

     

    Thank you and love from Europe.

    #401078
    anita
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    Dear Lukas:

    Welcome to the forums. I would like to reply to you further in about 11 hours from now. If you can elaborate on the “anger, jealousy and greed” in you, it will help me understand better.

    anita

    #401083
    Lukas
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    Hello Anita.

    Thank you so much for taking the time to reply.

    My Partner is way better off in the Deal financially, which is fine, He is the Real founder of the Company, He put in a lot of money, but it makes me angry and it makes me feel underappriciated, so i guess the Anger is fueld by my jealousy. Im jealous of him being better of and thus i can never “overtake” him in this regard and will always Stay behind and He will be better of always, this makes me jealous.

    And the underlying Problem seems to be that i cant manage to be happy with what i have – which is plenty. I can manage this in nearly every other Situation but not in this.

    And it really dissapoints me with myself that i am this “unnobel”

     

    #401089
    anita
    Participant

    Dear Lukas:

    You are welcome! You shared that every day, you feel anger, jealousy and greed in regard to your business partner who is also your brother, and you feel disappointed with yourself (feeling “unnobe“)  for feeling angry, jealous and greedy.

    I am very fortunate and I have everything I need, but I can’t seem to nourish my gratitute for what i have… I can’t manage to be happy with what I have- which is plenty” – there is something that you need but you don’t have plenty of.

    My Partner is way better off in the Deal financially… He is the Real founder of the company. He put in a lot of money… it makes me feel underappreciated” – what you don’t have is the feeling of being appreciated, of being valued- in comparison to your brother.

    I’m jealous of him being better of and thus I can never ‘overtake’ him in this regard and will always Stay behind and He will be better of always, this makes me jealous” – if he is your brother, I imagine that you observed how any one of your parents- or both- valued him in comparison to valuing you, and you observed that they valued him more than they valued you?

    anita

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    anita
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    How are you, Lukas?

    anita

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