July 12, 2013 at 1:42 pm #38507MattParticipant
The other day at the grocery store, I walked by some strawberries that looked moldy to me. So I said to the produce attendant “those strawberries looks rotten, as there is mold all over it.” It had nothing to do with the store’s character or the attendant’s skill in keeping produce…. it was compassionate support for the well being of the store and the shoppers. It is in the attempt of that spirit that I said those words, and my directness was only because of our mutual commitment to helping growth. If youre convinced my interpretation is inaccurate, there is every possibility of my projection. I am not yet enlightened. Namaste.
MattJuly 12, 2013 at 2:58 pm #38513JACParticipant
I apologize I was not clear about the limited free will and blinded by eyes. Please allow me to clarify.
We all have life lessons, life paths and a destiny. Think about this for a second. If we did what we wanted to do each life time, how do we go down the path? learn life lessons? or go towards our destiny? True free will can not co-exist with the aforementioned.
When I was in NYC last week, I stopped at a restaurant. A homeless man asked for a little food that the rabbi promised to him. The owner commanded the man stand outside in 103 degree weather, threw rice in a bag and told him to go. The man looked in this bag and asked for a fork. When the owner refused to give him one, the guy took off. I took one from my tray, ran after the guy and gave it to him. He was seen as a nuinance because he was homeless and hungry and not given the human dignity of a simple plastic fork. It turns out the guy was homeless due to medical bills from cancer. Had I used my eyes like the owner, I would have only seen a homeless person. I looked beyond my eyes to see a person who had a hard life, deserving dignity and respect. This is how we blind ourselves with our eyes. What we see is usually not the truth.July 12, 2013 at 4:42 pm #38518
Thank you so much for explaining,
I think I am starting to understand your point, your story made me cry to be honest… I know that there is something here I have to see that I can’t see, or maybe i just have to wait, I am not sure, but as you said, I do feel like I have to do something here which I don’t know what it is yet, and trying too hard is making me go blind as you said. I think maybe I am starting to get mentally depressed because of it and this is dangerous territory. because my natural self usually is a go getter, I can not sit and watch, I am a doer, I go after what i want as I have done before, and no matter what happens I try to get it. I am a hard headed capricorn that if I need to learn something to be able to get something, I read every single book in that direction, if I need to master something, I take a class, etc. So this is the first time in my life I just feel like I really can’t, something is holding me back from being a go getter like I was before, not sure if I have lost my trust in myself, or I just feel it’s the right thing to do, I didn’t even message the guy back(as I explain he disappears) to say where are you, I said he will message if he wants to, I just feel like a different person, not sure if it is in a good way or bad. I have been working on myself, reading and writing for couple of months now after that incident, and maybe I have been focusing too much in finding out what to do and NYC, you might be right,you know the feeling that you just feel like; it feels so right for me to just sit here and read and write, I really don’t want to do anything else. I feel like I am clear now that this is what I am suppose to do, and that incident made me and forced me to have all this time to be able to work on my website and start writing again. So everything else just feels totally wrong, now as you say I might be blinded, or just emotionally tired, because I went through a big trauma, and I feel like I am at the end of my trying game, it is time for thigns to fall into place, because I have no more energy left to start from bottom again.
So, you know that feeling of being numb? this is how I feel after this couple of months. Maybe all this thinking and pondering and being by myself not wanting to be around people until I be able to figure things out made me this way, but I feel like I am ok with this, I mean I only need money now to get bills and rent and living situation sorted, other than that, I am ok. I feel like it suppose to be this way, I would love to be in NYC, but right now I am ok it feels right to be at home and work on my website. To be honest other than the outside world problems I had, this past couple of months have been nice for me , working on my website and reading books I want and finding what i want to do.
If only I knew what to do about money, and you are right, I know I will end up in NYC when the time is right, I am not sure if the time is now, it might be, but I just know what I want to do and what I am suppose to do specially in NYC. When I was praying the other day in the shower and crying and asking GOD how do I get paid, because this is all I know and I don’t know what to do about money, and please tell me what to do, all of a sudden I heard something , it was so weird, I heard it so clearly, someone said; give what you can give, and I will take care of you. I think I lose faith very easily and i have to remind myself that I have faith.
Thanks JAC, and matt
sorry I started rambling now, I have to read your posts all over again maybe I could figure out what to do now, but thank you so much for the insights. JAC you are a very insightful lady, hope we could talk more .
DanubelleJuly 13, 2013 at 7:54 am #38536
I just wanted to let you know; I was watching Serendipity the movie this morning and I think I got what both of you were saying. The signs were everywhere for both of them, but they didn’t push it, they just watched and let it happen, and they were ok already with their lives. They just looked at it, and the minute the guy starts to push it, it goes away, he stops pushing and she just comes to her. You I guess just have to see the signs and make yourself available to receive it. I was looking to see if I can find a therapist yesterday to talk to about all this, and I saw a program to become a psychotherapy program, and it just came to me this is what I always wanted to do, not sure if this came to me for a reason, but now I am pondering if I should do it, but if I do, it’s about 3 years of not going to NYC, I might be able to do part of online as well. But I am going to go to info session, now I looked inside for that, now I need the universe and fate guid me to it. So when I was watching Serendipity this morning for the first time I saw that the lady is a therapist, sign? Not sure, but I am just being in the now and observing. If you had time give me your thoughts 🙂
DanubelleJuly 13, 2013 at 11:52 am #38543MattParticipant
I love the way you put it, and yes, you seem to be seeing the same thing I do. 🙂 Keep going… one thing leads to next and before you know it “presto!” you’ve done it! Open and flowing, a harmony of guidance and love that flows through and around us.
MattJuly 13, 2013 at 6:51 pm #38549JACParticipant
Lelah, there are no coincidences. This proves it.
We are both capricorns (18th is mine)
You want to go to NYC, I was just in NYC
We both get the signs often from spirit
We both traveled to different countries to first experience our destiny.
We both are writers. I am well known for my writing abilities.
We both tend to overthink things
The movie, in my opinion, was to tell you to let spirit guide you along your path and remind you to have faith. All this questioning is not faith. I have to see something at least 5 x’s to know it is a message from spirit.
For example, I am a jew by choice and spirit wants my twin flame to convert. To pound this message home, I saw none less than 15 different jewish people within 2 hours when the upper self was with me. I have never seen anything like this before. Spirit will make the messages very clear to you.
What are you doing to address the financial since you have to get an apartment?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E3fiX2L79gs. I bet this song makes total sense to you.
July 13, 2013 at 8:24 pm #38551
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That is amazing, yes I do agree with you. It’s funny my new york guy was part jewish as well, and lately all I see is jewish people around me. Your question about apartment made me scared a bit in my stomach a bit to be honest. Well all I am doing is applying for jobs, and have to step it up next week and try harder to find something fast. I don’t know why usually I panic but this time i just feel like things come together on time, and they usually do to be honest, I was just remembering every time I panicked, at the end things came together. My Birthday is the 19th actually. Yes I agree and I am not questioning the signs, I just didn’t know what to do about them, because seems like I can’t do much more but I realized i just have to be present for them and when the time is right I will know what to do I guess. I will get directed to it I believe.