During My meditation i asked myself a question who am i?
And suddenly i sunk deep inside my awareness because it was deep me.
I felt that the self which is me begins at the tailbone to the top of the head, and suddenly my awareness came through the top of the head even higher and higher outside my body. There was nothing, a pure piece and stillness. No suffering, no happyness. Just nothing. I just thought myself theres no me, those emotions i feel arent me im just observator of emotions, even the body isnt me. The body felt like a leaf which grew from the big branch which is awareness. Body is impermanent illusion and suffering and emotions arent my true self.
“No suffering, no happiness. Just nothing”- no suffering is a good, good thing.
“Just nothing”, like your chosen name, nothing.
“i’m just observator of emotions, even the body isn’t me”- being able to observe our emotions (instead of drowning in emotions, being taken by them as if they were powerful waves in the ocean, or a strong windstorm), is a very good thing.
Of course, as humans we cannot get rid of our emotions, but it is possible, as you experienced in this meditation, to detach ourselves from them so to not impulsively react to them any which way. By detaching and observing, we have the space needed to thoughtfully choose our behaviors.