Hi,
Briefly about myself… I’m 23 years old male, I have tourette’s syndrome which is towards the severe end and I’m completely confused in life. Although I used to work, I’ve had a couple short-term jobs, and I also finished school, I have no job at the moment and no further education that would help me in finding a better job. My “disability” makes it very difficult to do certain tasks, manual tasks, but I find myself avoiding almost any activity, even reading and using a computer as I start thinking that I will have to sit in an uncomfortable position and turn pages or press mouse buttons and type with keyboard and so on… But I can’t live like that, I feel so hopeless sometimes, I have to find a way to make myself do things and I also want to be happy while doing something. I feel so much anger and other bad emotions, and my tics doesn’t make it easier to cope with them, but I want to believe that there is still hope and that I could take at least some control of my mind and my movements, although not completely, but at least to the level where it doesn’t hurt so much tic-wise and so that I could work, study and live a fulfilling life.
Although I believe that tourette’s makes it more difficult for me to do things, I think ‘normal’ people without any disabilities often feel something similar, so maybe someone out there felt the same way and found a way out of it? I have started researching buddhism and meditation a little, although confusing and I have only read bits and pieces of it, I think that working towards developing that spiritual side might help me… I just don’t know where to turn anymore…
I’ve found this forum on google searching for topics related to my problem and It seems that it is widely used, so I hope that someone will be able to give me some advice and/or guide me to some direction…
Thank you all for reading my post and thanks in advance for the replies…
Regards,
Justas