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June 21, 2016 at 2:16 pm #107877AnonymousGuest
Dear loveleebabe:
First, a side note: if you will be planning to leave, what I would do, if I was you, would be to get legal advice from a resource for abused spouses, and the local police station. Tell them you are afraid of her. Tell them she has threatened you with and ask if there is a chance for her to make real her threats. If possible, make a formal police report listing her threats, in detail. You may find out, after talking to the police, that there is no way for her to legally get you in trouble, and if you file a police report against her, there will be a record of her threats made before you left.
Now to answering your question:”I could walk out the door right now, but what about what will happen. ? Is she going to hurt me? Is it worth th risk? What is yur other thoughts” –
These are my thoughts: yes, it is worth the risk to leave. If I was you, I would leave and never go back. The moment I leave, it will be one way. No going back. The only way I would ever be in her physical presence would be in a courthouse with guards present. I would never talk to her on the phone or correspond with her. Any and all correspondence, if any, will be between my attorney/ legal representative and her.
It is worth the risk because if you leave and never go back, you will rescue yourself from a life of abuse, humiliation, submission. For me, this is not a life worth living. After all, I know this kind of life. I lived it with my mother. I would rather be dead then go back in time and live this way again.
Please post again, anytime.
anita
June 23, 2016 at 5:11 pm #108049LoveParticipantThanks again anita, nan 🙂
Nan, to answer your questions. ?
I did leave twice before. In may 2014 and came back here 10 days later
I left again in august the same year and came back a a week later.
I stayed with the same friend, who I called the other nightBut since my wife got involved, she called the police and bluffed a restraining order against him. So now this friend was my only resource, and my wife took that away 🙁
I came back the first time because she” threatened” me
The second time because she “convinced” me things would be different, better.Im still technically married, but as people, I broke up with her.
But we are living togetherIts technically abusive verbally emotionally psychologically.. yet when its not she acts like were “together”
Giving kisses, trying to make me laugh, demands we sleep in the same bed every night, acts like shes “gonna help me get a job and a place”So… should I buy this, or cut n run.. like I said, I have little resources.. and dc I can justify this situation, even though truly it is NOT what I want
June 23, 2016 at 5:27 pm #108051LoveParticipantMight I add, that as much as she needs me for help,mm etc… three ed things which she has that I nerd are wifi because without it I cant be on here.
My belongings I now are safe here
And I have a place to live, with basic needs ven, water showers food laundry a bed.. and withoutb money I cant rent out a room which id prefer to a woman’s shelter
Yet if I piss her off or dont listen to her or her demands, she cuts off wifi, which I value more than you know!June 23, 2016 at 5:47 pm #108057LoveParticipantAnita im so sorry for what happened with you and your mother! My heart goes out to you. ?
My mther was abusive too growing up. It felt like hell in my home, id go to school cryig some days, and ive always been a sensitive kid.
Shed hit me a lot and be verbally and mentally abusiveHow in the hell did I marry an abusive woman! And why have I stayed almost 8 years! Im not stupid
June 23, 2016 at 8:59 pm #108081AnonymousGuestDear loveleebabe”
Thank you for your empathy, I appreciate it very much. And I am sorry as well that you had an abusive mother and are having an abusive wife. Often an abused child, and you were an abused child, grows up damaged and ends up in future abusive situations. And you are in one. So as to your question with an exclamation mark (not really a question): “How in the hell did I marry an abusive woman!”- well, unfortunately it happens often enough: you get used to being abused as a child and you tolerate it later, being used to it, not knowing a difference, how it can be otherwise.
This is why I think that counseling will help you a lot, to come to believe that you don’t deserve abuse, that you deserve to be respected, that you deserve empathy and respect… and that it feels good, and is more important by far than the conveniences you have where you live.
If you don’t want to go to a women’s shelter, maybe you can contact them regarding therapy available for abused women? I mean, you are an abused woman. Maybe look at the Free Resources above (click Home)? You got to get some help so to stop being abused…!!!
anita
June 24, 2016 at 4:26 am #108093LoveParticipantThank you anita, im curious to knw what things wre like for you, hw yur r journey was. Its always good to have an experienced persons story.
The problem I’m facing is the fact that I have conveniences. Things not entirely bad. That doesn’t justify the bad parts.. but if I were to be an outsider looking in, I’d have left long ago. Istill cant sedm to shake the fact that weve bee. Married amost 8 years and ive “normalized” the situation to “all couples have their issues”Im not “in love” and Im not staying “to try u to work things out” because I dont have that desire. I want tobe young and free and happy and at peace..basically go back to who I was before I I gt married.
I feel like a completely different person. I hate it, but I feel so “trappdd” yet “comfortable” :/June 24, 2016 at 8:07 am #108100AnonymousGuestDear “trapped yet comfortable” loveleebabe:
I understand trapped-yet-comfortable. So as long as you are comfortable, you will stay in the situation. Why would I urge you to exit a comfortable situation (I am asking myself)?
And trying to answer my own question as I type: …wrong question. The right question is: should I try to talk someone into leaving a comfortable situation? My answer: no, because that would be a waste of time and effort. People don’t leave comfortable.
So as long as you are comfortable, you will stay. There has always be discomfort in life, even if and when you leave. The choice is not between the life you have and peace-and-happiness when you leave. There is always struggle, in healing itself.
If you chose to leave, it would be leaving behind a struggle that takes you nowhere better in your mind and life and choosing a struggle that takes you to a better place in your mind and life.
Going back to the title of your thread: a tricky choice, isn’t it? Between struggle… and struggle?
anita
June 24, 2016 at 11:55 am #108126LoveParticipantYes I d De ed its a struggle. I feel no ike ivecome full circle. I know this comfortable feeling isnt what truy need or truly want, its simply a payoff so to speak. ?
So help m be uncomfortable, in a healthy way :June 24, 2016 at 11:58 am #108127LoveParticipantI admit** it is astruggle
June 24, 2016 at 12:00 pm #108128LoveParticipantSorry for the typos…Should I feel bad that Ive used all thistime only to be regretting it now. I honestly have the desire to leave. Seriously,. But its hard, maybe I need a push
June 24, 2016 at 12:38 pm #108142AnonymousGuestDear loveleebabe:
If I give you a push in the direction of the exit door, so you leave this place where you live, and you are on the streets, or in a shelter, or elsewhere, and suffering, in great distress, will I be there to hold your hand? To take you in where it is warm and comfortable and loving?
Unfortunately, I will not. I will still be sitting here on my recliner, with the computer on my lap, typing.
This is why it is not responsible for me to push you, to pressure you to leave. Because I won’t be there with you, in person, once you leave, to help you.
I too lived in abusive homes as an adult. I left at times but ended in other abusive living situations. This is another reason why it won’t make sense for me to push you. If and when you leave, you have to heal and continue to heal so indeed to get to a way better state of mind and life. The journey is long.
Please do post anytime.
anita
June 25, 2016 at 7:17 am #108180LoveParticipantThank you anita, ill post more soon, im glad you have a good grasp on the reality of things 🙂 you’re a very smart woman
June 25, 2016 at 7:20 am #108181AnonymousGuestDear loveleebabe:
Thank you and looking forward to your next post.
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