Dear Anita,
Thank you so much for the attention you have been giving to our conversation.

I am sorry I did not get back to you earlier. I have been working a lot at the University and got home very tired these past days.

Yes, the baby elephant image is perfect. I can see myself in that situation through my life.

Your advice on how to retrain the mind – to give a different meaning to what the inner critic is saying – was very important to me. How could I ever be kind to myself if I don’t do this? The inner critic exists for a reason and I understand that – but I now see more clearly the importance of taking away its cruelty and of giving it a kinder voice.

I realize I have been listening to Lucia all the way – and that I did not develop a inner structure strong enough to deal with it.

I guess my consciousness about many things is amplifying…

I’ll write more tonight,

Flávia

Dear Anita,

These past few days have been difficult. I feel like crying and very tired. Sometimes I have to ask my daughter for help since I feel so strange and confused. She said she thinks that I am going through some kind of change. I guess I am struggling to get rid of my old way of thinking.

I keep going to work as usual, I talk to people as usual and try to be brave. The baby elephant you told me about comes to my mind, old thoughts and sensations come to my mind – But I think I am going to make it – I hope.

You mentioned timeline requirements – and that’s exactly how I feel – I feel like I have to meet a deadline all the time.

Of course I have many of them, but the feeling goes beyond meeting deadlines at work. It is a kind of sense of urgency.

So, I take a breath, calm down, drink a lot of water, and keep going.

Thanks for listening!

Flávia