I don’t know if this is a topic for ‘Emotional Mastery’, but I have come to see that I just can not live a life that is focused on what I need to do for myself if I’m living or around with others. This includes family and romantic partners.
I am so easily distracted, and not just in the sense of wanting to engage with others. Even when I don’t want to engage, just their presence (even if I’m alone in my bedroom) scatters my energy. I can’t focus on what I need to do or my life in general.
This has been the case for my entire life. Only now I’m seeing how much it affects who I am and who I want to be.
Also, I have been practicing focusing on myself and not being concerned with what others think. But this is not the issue here. It’s just a sense of unrest being around others. I can not ignore them.
Yes, I experienced being easily distracted, difficulty focusing, and having “a sense of unrest being around others”. I felt a whole lot of this kind of unrest as a teenager. I wonder if you are familiar with Mindfulness guided meditations and exercises (I don’t remember if we discussed it in your previous thread). These can help a lot with reducing distractions, improving focusing and experiencing calm instead of unrest.