I’ve been on this earth for 32 years now and have dealt with depression at separate points in my life. My 20s have seen me travel through the dark roads that was my depression and PTSD as well (I’m a combat veteran). I did seek help in my late 20s and so far my 30s have been much better having gotten over the majority of what ailed me. But there is still some residual negativity that I deal with. I know that until I can fully accept my past, I will never be fully healed and become the man I strive to be.

My personal life isn’t bad. I do have a wonderful family that is supportive, a couple close friends I can rely on, I’m single but otherwise live a full life. Its just at night, when I have nothing to occupy myself with but my thoughts do I start to feel the negativity creep up on me. Sometimes, meditation does help. But often times the waves of negativity are so strong that I can’t fight it.

I would like some insight on what I can further do to help me along this journey of mine. I do feel a little lonely at times being single, but I feel that I shouldn’t start to date until I realize the potential in me and be at my best. What have you kind strangers done in to effectively let go of the past? I know there isn’t a quick fix, but I feel lost. I know there is a way but I can’t seem to find it.