Today was terrible. Today I was public enemy number zero amongst foster mom and her family.

Her son at the last minute today decided to call her and tell her he’s going to have someone come to the house tomorrow and give her a mani pedi.

Foster mom had me call him a few times because she forgot the time and sometimes she needs specific people to relay the message and explain to her… because of her progressive dementia and lack of understanding.

As she has never trusted nor agreed with much of what I tell her since I’ve been here.

Each time I called responded and passed the phone to foster mom he was very short tempered and angry with both of us.

Then I called him to inquire about the person he sought out, due to foster moms various health problems, she should have a medical pedicurist or podiatrist… perhaps in a sterile environment…I told him foster moms doctors probably would prefer it if she went to a podiatrist or had mobile ones coming. He was offended and told me that he just didn’t get her of the streets and she owns her own shop and specializes in elder care.

Elder care isn’t the same thing as specializing in an elder with serious medical problems.

I had to call him back because foster mom asked him to reschedule because the exterminator was scheduled to come tomorrow and she really didn’t want to reschedule and do that to him…as we have done this many times in the past for various reasons, and she views highly of him.

Foster moms son really got pissed off and angry then. He told me that he’s worked a long time on this( never informed us of this, all of this could have been avoided if we were informed and he could have gotten a proper person) .

When I inquired about her with him, he acted like he didn’t understand why I had concerns.. he said “for what, and why does this person need to be a specialist)

That he wasn’t rescheduling and to tell the exterminator to reschedule.

The exterminator set tomorrows date with us the beginning of this month. I told him yet. Now they had left me to break it off again.

He was very upset and disappointed to hear ..and I felt really badly because he had immediate plans for that income and told me that he really needed to come tomorrow. I felt really badly and told him sorry.

Foster mom placed blame on me, and told me that it was my fault for scheduling both at the same time. I told her it wasn’t my fault. It was her sons. That they have a habit of not consulting and considering her and just making plans with different people without her consent…to come out or whatever. They often do this, often with short notice.

He just told me us this today and I had to alter her plans.

He does this often when he takes her to the doctor. He used to inform me when they were coming back in short distance…now he doesn’t, and just shows up without calling and ringing the bell. He used to call now all of a sudden he doesn’t. Sometimes he just shows up here at late evening unannounced.. and foster mom was sleeping and didn’t want company.

2 weeks ago he showed up with a lady to sign up to be her health aide without informing her. She was very tired, didn’t want either here.

He is also going to be the cause of foster mom possibly facing consequences and getting her insurance terminated behind his illegal activity.

Signing up to be a persons health aide, pretending to be present, clocking in away from their home phone, and collecting pay from.. this is illegal.

This is the 3rd person from her family to do this. His daughter just got in trouble for this, and foster moms other son who was doing this for a few years.

I seem to be the only one that despite everything, I hold foster mom in high regards and I actually try to improve her quality and comfort of life.

They assume they won’t get in trouble, and so far hasn’t faced repercussions…they don’t understand these things probably will come back to them perhaps weeks, months, years..it will come back.

I couldn’t imagine still scheming and scamming at almost 70 years old…but at one point I imagine my life becoming better. That was when I was lying to myself…as we all do to survive and cope.

So, he must have been harshly talking about me to his other brothers… because one called and basically sided with him…telling us to reschedule the exterminator..

I’m upset, annoyed, disappointed, and saddened. I mostly feel terrible for foster mom.

She has a family that often disregards her, her wishes, and has been relying on an outsider to tell them all the medical issues, and health problems that foster mom has. They don’t even know her health issues, insurance, appointments, nor about her medications, etc …

They’re always calling me about these things. They still haven’t bothered to learn these things and commit it to memory.

Foster mom unfortunately isn’t blameless.. their upbringing and other things made them who they are currently… we all are what we are for various reasons.

I really wish that I could rid myself of them.. permanently.

For the betterment of person kind, I need to be removed and placed far away from civilization. I have something inside of me that’s always been trying to come out. I know a lot won’t believe me…but it’s a literal demon… It’s been with me my entire life tormenting, mocking me, abusing me, and trying to get me to turn back into whatever form I was.. previous to this life.

It feeds off my rage and anger. It provokes me because it wants to get out and assist me in harming people.

I have been fighting hard to keep it in .