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A bit lost, spiritually speaking. I don't "fit" in.

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  • June 7, 2017 at 4:51 pm #152304
    Alfred
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    My spiritual journey has been a long road with many questions and mysteries.

    There are things I believe from many different religions, there are parts of Christianity I can stand by, but much of it I cannot.

    Whenever something strays into hateful/shameful territory, it doesn’t resonate with my heart.

    And yet when I look for something in the spiritual community, I see other things that don’t resonate with me either.

    I believe in God, I don’t know how God operates but I pray a lot. I believe God is the creator and an endless source of love.

    But here’s the thing, I believe in an afterlife.

    But in the new-age kind of spiritual community this belief doesn’t apply to many,

    I am telling you this is what I believe, and it’s okay if you don’t believe in the same thing, but I’m tired of people trying to push reincarnation/past lives onto me. It’s just confusing. It feels like I have to pick a side.

    I can’t find a “group” to belong to, a way to validate the things I believe in.

    It makes me feel out of place and alone. When I read up on things, it seems like Paganism is the closest thing to what I believe, but also has many differing beliefs.

    I feel like I’m just bouncing around. I want to be able to settle and feel good about it.

    I want to live a loving life, I’m a loving and caring person. I don’t try to harm anyone and just want the world to be a better place, yet certain religions make me feel like I’m unworthy/guilty/shameful. I just want to live following my heart and being loving.

    Part of me doesn’t want God to be displeased with me, I just want God to always love me and know I am doing my best to spread light in this world.

    Is that too much to ask for? What do I do? Do I keep searching for a place to “fit” in, a community that shares my beliefs.

    It’s so hard. I believe in God without the dogma of religion and yet still believe in an afterlife. I’m tired of hearing about a jealous/judgemental and angry God, in my heart I just don’t believe God is that way………….. Sorry for rambling.

    June 8, 2017 at 6:52 am #152344
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Dear Alfred:

    In communication with me, here, you are welcome to believe in god or no god, in an afterlife or no afterlife, in reincarnation and past lives or.. in no such thing. No belief requirements on this site and no pressure by me to believe in any of these things. I am familiar with the exclusivity of many religious believers, the our-way-or-the-highway mindset. I don’t associate with people who practice this mindset and/or with people who shame and guilt others who will not comply with their-way.

    When you try to fit into a (big enough) group of people, if you expect all individuals in that group to have the same beliefs, same attitudes, all agreeable to you, you will be disappointed again and again.

    anita

    June 8, 2017 at 9:12 pm #152498
    Alfred
    Participant

    Thank you for your kind and accepting words. What a beautiful thing to say. You are onto it, I am going to do my best to let go and just be, be a good person and try my best to leave a loving impression on humanity. I will honor what I believe and stop over-thinking things. I have noticed that when I over-think, it leads to confusion and being overwhelmed by everything. I’m going to stop trying to logic my relationship with God and let it be a natural process. Thank you for your response, it’s much appreciated!

    June 9, 2017 at 5:13 am #152514
    Anonymous
    Guest

    You are welcome, Alfred. Hope you do disengage from over-thinking. Post anytime.

    anita

    June 9, 2017 at 12:48 pm #152578
    Mark
    Participant

    Hey Alfred,

    It’s OK not to fit in. You don’t have to fit your beliefs into one of the cookie cutter views on life out there. Maybe being uncertain can be a good thing because you can question, live, and seek meaning. Maybe it’s once we are “settled” that we sort of become stuck on this one way of viewing life, that limits us to so much else out there.

    June 9, 2017 at 2:49 pm #152600
    Alfred
    Participant

    Thank you all very much, and I will remind myself of that Mark, I really appreciate your perspective on this and will move forward one step at a time!

    June 28, 2017 at 8:07 am #155390
    Tannhauser
    Blocked

    Personally speaking, God is much less of an issue for me now then He/She/It was a few years ago. We shouldn’t project human values and characteristics onto the spiritual realm, for it is not like Earth by any means. My problem is now with humans. I am sick of being enslaved to the whims and demands of others, and the more one wakens, the more one sees just how demanding and attention-seeking human beings can be. Is it not enough that I as a spirit should be imprisoned in this cage of flesh, unable to fly where I will, that I should also be shackled to the will of others who demand my immediate attention as and when needed? And I am not talking about basic needs such as looking after children, but of the necessity to conform and comply without question, both to individual and group requirements. Such a thing is hellish to a spirit.

    I am really waking up now to the true reality of the situation on Earth, and it is horrible. We think we are free, but we are most certainly not. That is why more and more people are becoming confused, depressed or angry. I am increasingly being drawn to the Gnostic worldview, and I believe very strongly that this could be a prison planet. I had an out of body experience/dream last year. The experience straddled both the dream state and out of body state, so that it was difficult to gauge the actual reality of the situation. But at the point in the dream at which I knew I had left my body and could see it on the bed, I tried to fly up through the roof and out of the house. This was almost a natural response or instinct. I only left the ground by a few inches, which meant I was tethered here in some way, unable to leave. I then returned to my body, lay on top of it and woke up. Draw from that what you will.

    Best wishes,

    Tannhauser

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