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December 3, 2017 at 8:59 am #180393InkyParticipant
Hi Gang!
So a couple months ago I wrote about how I saw a Certain Person who triggers my social anxiety and I was all “NOPE!” and you guys comforted me that my reaction to leave the Event was normal and acceptable. (And for that, I thank you!)
Well, there was a Pipe and Drum concert and I saw him and another person who triggers the social anxiety attacks (same origin story, two characters) sitting with people I knew. And then I got MAD and felt The Iron Will take place in my body. I was all, “I am NOT missing the Celtic live music playing hymns about Jesus just because of these two people!”
They were all (discreetly) looking over at me. I was all jamming to the volume 10 Scottish bagpipe vibe and enjoyed myself mostly and even forgot all about them for a while!
And then at the end I put my coat on without looking at them, body blocked while smiling and talking to other people and (of course) got the hell out of there.
This is like the third or fourth time this year I’ve encountered being in the same room with him. It’s like the Universe is all, “RESOLVE THIS!” (Yeah, right. Nice try, Universe!)
This can’t go on, clearly, but how did I do??
Inky
December 3, 2017 at 10:14 am #180401AnonymousGuestDear Inky:
Yes, I remember, the Noxious Stimulus. Well, you had a small victory forgetting all about him for a while- that means you can do it again, maybe even extend the time you forget about him, maybe play that music in your mind next time you see him, that “volume 10 Scottish bagpipe vibe”.
Nothing in the wondrous Best of Inky’s for this one?
anita
December 3, 2017 at 12:14 pm #180407InkyParticipantSometimes you need an outside ear/input so you don’t think you’re crazy! 🙂
December 3, 2017 at 4:47 pm #180423PeterParticipantChange happens slowly then all at once – every victory is a victory! Congratulations on your success the next victory is just around the corner. Well done!
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December 4, 2017 at 4:27 am #180455AnonymousGuestDear Inky:
I am supposing you can guess my approach: figure out the origin of this noxious stimulus, the origin that preceded the appearance of this man in your life. He triggers a neuropathway that pre-existed him. I am visualizing you smiling as you read this (I may be wrong of course). I mean, you hardly see him, not important enough to go through the trouble…
anita
December 4, 2017 at 12:04 pm #180519InkyParticipantWell, if I were reading this post and I attempted to give a Best of Inky, I suppose I would say something like, “Have someone with you, and seek sanctuary in politeness”.
To address how and why he makes me react this way, clearly it has to do with my Dark Origin Story. Like if I resolve this then I energetically resolve that. And if I can’t resolve this then my youth continues to be unresolved as well.
I do wish my son, all decked out in his military uniform, was there that day. Not that I parade him about like a show pony, but then I could be all (unspoken but louder than words)”See? SEE?? I am a real person! I raised this cadet!” and hold my head up.
- This reply was modified 7 years ago by Inky.
December 4, 2017 at 12:14 pm #180523InkyParticipantNothing like the vision of a military family during a Pipe and Drum Ceremony is all I’m saying. LOL
(Sorry for drifting into Social Redemption Fantasies…!!)
December 5, 2017 at 4:31 am #180587AnonymousGuestDear Inky:
I have my first smile of the day, reading your last two posts, and a big smile it is. There is no one capable of the Best of Inky’s… except for the one and only Inky!
anita
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