Help. So confused, hurt and worried. I was abused as a child from about age 4 to 13 by a friend of my parents and a family member.

I told my mother, teachers, the church priest. I was told it would be taken care of, not to talk about, not to tell my father.

It led to visual snd auditory hallucinations. I told my parents, I was told not to talk about it, not to be silly, people would think I am strange and laugh at me and call me weird. So I shut up and kept it to myself. They, the voices that is, called to me, told I was unloved, worthless, that I wouldn’t be missed if I was dead. And in the end I believed them.

Now after 2 suicide attempts it all came out in a therapy session. I have great medical support for which I am truly thankful.

My dilemma is that I believe to get full closure I need to report this. I spoke to my sister who knew nothing if the abuse, but says it will hurt and upset too many people if I report it.

BUT WHAT ABOUT THE LITTLE GIRL WHO ASKEX FOR HELP. NO MATTER HER AGE KNOW DOESN’T SHE DESERVE CLOSURE OF THIS HORRIFIC ABUSE IN HER PAST. WHAT ABOUT HER?

I welcome any comments you may have.

Thank you so much for ‘listening ‘