March 12, 2018 at 9:40 pm #196975
Help. So confused, hurt and worried. I was abused as a child from about age 4 to 13 by a friend of my parents and a family member.
I told my mother, teachers, the church priest. I was told it would be taken care of, not to talk about, not to tell my father.
It led to visual snd auditory hallucinations. I told my parents, I was told not to talk about it, not to be silly, people would think I am strange and laugh at me and call me weird. So I shut up and kept it to myself. They, the voices that is, called to me, told I was unloved, worthless, that I wouldn’t be missed if I was dead. And in the end I believed them.
Now after 2 suicide attempts it all came out in a therapy session. I have great medical support for which I am truly thankful.
My dilemma is that I believe to get full closure I need to report this. I spoke to my sister who knew nothing if the abuse, but says it will hurt and upset too many people if I report it.
BUT WHAT ABOUT THE LITTLE GIRL WHO ASKEX FOR HELP. NO MATTER HER AGE KNOW DOESN’T SHE DESERVE CLOSURE OF THIS HORRIFIC ABUSE IN HER PAST. WHAT ABOUT HER?
I welcome any comments you may have.
Thank you so much for ‘listening ‘March 13, 2018 at 12:11 am #197009
I’m sorry that all of this happened to you, this isn’t right. It’s horrible to think that you reach out and you didn’t get help.
I’m not sure there’s anything I can say that’s going to help but I’ll say this, try and stay strong try and keep fighting.March 13, 2018 at 8:34 am #197043
Yes, the little girl deserves justice. She deserves to be listened to, to receive the empathy she had so little of. She deserves someone to get angry at the hurt she experienced, and still does, at the consequences of that long term abuse, consequences she still suffers. She deserves someone to get angry and seek justice, bring those individuals to justice.
Yes, she deserves all this and more. She should never have been silenced. She should never have been sacrificed so that others will not be inconvenienced.
This little girl was abused by the two individuals who did what they did for years, and she was abused by the people who silenced her.
“the little girl who tried” is this lovable girl who is still trying. Be good to her. I do so wish her the best.
anitaMarch 13, 2018 at 10:09 pm #197125
After understanding your situation, my heart goes out to you.
You did not deserve whatever you experienced when you were younger, and the people who are trying to hide the truth from justice are horrible people.
Listen to your own heart, rather than the voices of others.
You are a precious human being, and there is so much more to experience in this world, better things, happier things.
I wish you the best <3
JunnaMarch 14, 2018 at 11:03 am #197255
Do what is right by you.
This is the honest truth. There is no more room for lies. Let everything be clear, let it be simple and easy. With all your heart, for those you love – ask for their love and support. Clarify every little doubt you had. Let us all truly move on. You deserve that attention and acknowledgement at the very least.