What you said about proper socializing being about being seen, heard and basically acknowledged is what hit me the most. That’s how I could sum up my negative feelings about my socializing experiences so far that I couldn’t exactly pin point before: not truly feeling like I’m seen, heard, met, most of the time.. almost being like an object. This happened to me a lot, or at least, that’s how I’ve been feeling, at school, in teams, often also in family. I guess that’s why I’m so sensitive to feeling left out or people being indifferent to me triggers me a fucking lot.