Anita,

yes we will meet in person. And – it’s interesting because it’s something that will just not go away.

The main anxiety is that I never feel like I have enough time. And I never know if I give him enough attention. Or focus on him enough. I feel very confused by it. I never have known love. And I have learned love with him. Parrot taught me a false- completely fake love. So a lot of the anxiety rooted from trying to have that fake lobe with pup (which does not exist. Because it is fake)

But yes I have severe anxiety about it – because I feel conflicted on how to focus on myself and heal and also give him enough attention.