I am doing okay, missing him a lot today. I was thinking of this…about being attached to the dream of what could be and I think it is true. I have met so many people, both men, and women, and yet I never had another human understand me so well as he could. I was afraid if I would get someone ever again who is so close to me as he was and so effortlessly.

Anyways, I am happy for now in my own company. I am dying at work, the target is too huge for a fresher and they are pushing us too hard but I am putting all my efforts in. My sister’s marriage got postponed again due to covid situation. So, my parents are stressed again.  There is a ceremony in our state which I am ashamed of but it is the tradition so my parents follow it blindly. The male members of the bride and groom’s family meet and the bride’s family bring gifts for the groom’s family. in the olden days, the gifts were sweets and fruits. Today it is everything you can imagine….”dowry” included. So a brand new car came to my house today, a TV, a fridge, a microwave, and dozens of other things along with jewelry made in valuable metals.  So although the groom’s family agreed to let the wedding be postponed they want this ceremony to be held tomorrow itself. I don’t want a marriage like that and seeing the way everything was brought and packed, made me feel really uncomfortable. Anyway, this made my parents happy though because this means that the wedding will take place sooner or later.

I have been dancing these days, made two reels too….it was the first time I dared to put it up…. I have such insecurities about people commenting on me in the past but people encouraged me, applauded even. Old friends reconnected, said they were waiting for a day to come when I would come out of my shell.

It felt good. I made a plan chart, I will start writing again from May 3rd and finish the pending work fast.

These are the things going on with me. How are you guys? Anita and TeaK?