Hello @Dannydan

I asked if you managed to communicate after what happened, since when you wrote that post about all that happened, it seemed to me you did not have a chance to do that and it seems I was right. And now she asked for space..

I had that feeling you have now, many times before. When something in realtionship goes bad, and it’s your fault, and you know that.. The anxiety it’s really hard, the uncertainty. I know today you feel that, and the day is going slow probably, and you can’t stop thinking.
This is a page about  mindfulness, but it’s hard to do that in your situation. I would be the same.  But it will probably resolve after few days. I can just send you good wishes to hang on until that.

(Sorry guys, sometimes it’s hard for me to find words, as English is not my mother language).

@Sammy1 asked yesterday what is happening with me and @Jay2023  but I wanted to talk about your issue first.

I mentioned I’ve been chatting with a guy and these days we are talking about meeting. I’m panicking a bit, actually. I’m a bit afraid. It’s weird, chatting with someone for 3 months, and you think he is nice and interesting guy, and now you don’t know how will you feel in person.

Also… I had a problem that i was a bit cold in the beginning, and he was being really nice and kind in replying and I was not always. I had this fear, because he doesn’t live close, because I was unsure if I can have this kind of distance relationsip (it’s not too far, about 1 hour distance). I actually told him that and he reassured me. We are both aware we are just chatting and we don’t have a clue whether we can be even friends or now, because meeting in person means a lot, and we talked about that.

So I was the one who took longer to reply, afraid, even thinking about stopping the conversation, because of fear and he was really nice and patient. He even mentioned, kind of in a joke, about meeting and I ignored it, a few times actually, about 3 times. (As I said, I communicated him my doubts before). And I was buying a car, and he helped me with advices, and somehow after that my interested shifted. And I got interested in our talks more. So I’m not sure if I’m now noticing it, if he just took after my style, if I’m just imagining it or not.. but it seems he’s replying more rare.

A few weeks ago, I mentioned him that I do want to meet now, but then COVID wave hit. And then I mentioned again last week, and he asked to meet me this weekend or the next week. When the rain stops, it’s rainy now, and only the terraces of places are open. He still chats, we write long messages and he does ask me a lot of questions. And I’m aware we might or might not like each other when we meet. But I’m scared a bit. I guess that’s normal. I guess any input would be welcome.