Dear Girija

I have just read thru some of your posts. I have a couple of observations:

when I was at college one of the girls had a loud and harsh, grating voice, she met a man at a dance and eventually got married – he was profoundly deaf! If you did voluntary work with the blind they would not be judging what you looked like, giving chance for your inner beauty to shine.

When we are desperate for love it has an repelling effect or attracts the wrong sort. I took a vow of celibacy for a year and it freed me, it took the pressure off, no longer the constant wanting or disappointment in people not fulfilling  my dreams or needs this included family and friends. Love can not be forced, you are deserving of love – love yourself. You are young and can start to take steps to heal old wounds and help prevent any new ones from being deep and lasting.

There is a lovely quote from Thich Nat Hans smiling meditation. Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile and sometimes your smile is the source of your joy. abit like the dog wagging its tail.

When my mothers cancer came back I decided that what ever my mum wanted I would try to give it to her. I would try to put aside my ego for the duration and for the most part of her last 5 years I achieved it yes I did slip up on many occasions, but I soon realised that she was a frightened and in pain alot of the time and that made it easier for me to swallow my pride and say sorry. Our relationship was much healed by the time of her passing.

Each time we work on our inner world it effects our outer world each drop of love compassion and wisdom we foster in ourselves is a gift not only to ourselves but the whole world.

Kind regards

Roberta