Dear Addy:

I think I know the “dead eye” look, that’s the look I dreamed about at nights: her looking at me with those dead eyes. There was definitely no love whatsoever in those eyes, only hate and a silent promise to kill, meaning,  those eyes had let me know that it would be easy for her to kill me. No love to stop her, no feeling for me other than hate.

“he gets angry if things aren’t going as he wants it to be….  whenever I do something wrong, or get anxious to find tool or take some more time to find, he’d get furious and scold me“-  you didn’t do something wrong, nothing wrong at all. The one doing something wrong is Him, not You. The wrong he did was to get furious and scold a child who wanted and tried to help him. His expectations were unrealistic: that you will help him exactly like he imagined that you should help him: perfectly.

Plus, very important fact of life: getting furious at you and scolding you made you (understandably) significantly anxious. Anxious people don’t function well because their anxiety distracts them from the task at hand. If he wanted anything close to perfection from you, he should have provided you with calm, positive support, not angry, negative opposition.

“my mom stopped me tried so solve this matter“- I wonder how she tried to solve the matter.

anita