Dear Sarah:

(I am adding the boldface feature to your words): “I physically and emotionally felt the connection with plants, the earth etc… I know.. that we’re all connected… but I also feel lost. I feel that I’ve gone over the edge spiritually and that I can’t see where I’m heading. I feel like I need guidance“-

– I read somewhere, and believe it to be true, that (I am paraphrasing) we humans are like the ocean, connected and timeless.  Each individual human being is like a wave that rises (lives) and then falls (dies), a temporary, momentary appearance in the vast, timeless ocean.

Now, my observation: the problem with humanity is that too many of us do not feel the connection: we feel and act as separate entities, and the result: sickness, wars and a troubled world in so many ways. Going back to the analogy of the ocean, it’d be like so many, many waves are splitting from the blue ocean, separately shooting up into the air, and having lost the blue color of the ocean, invisible, they get lost. The meaning of life is in the connection. Separated, we are lost.

You shared about what I understand to be quite a few separations in your life, some recent: “my Mum who has passed.. I finally found the courage to leave my job… my marriage is falling apart, my kids are both struggling (both now diagnosed with ASD.. my Dad died”-

– separation from your Mum and Dad through death, separation from your job, separation from your partner in marriage, and there is separation in Autistic Spectrum Disorder (ASD), an emotional separation within and without.

I would like to communicate with you on the matter, if you would like to. Would you?  Do you agree with any or all of what I wrote here so far?

anita

I have only met a few who have gone thru this type of experience without the help of a teacher. They become obsessed with their experiences and lose their sense of what is real and what to believe is normal. These experiences can be unsettling and pull one away from those who surrounds one. The opening of the mind’s eye can come with disturbing images which one does not understand. It can come with messages that is apparently a warning. None of which the person under going these experience can understand or comprehend correctly without a certain knowledge and help. A swimmer lost in an eddy or whirl pool, fighting to survive the current. Please find yourself a teacher. Private talk. Find the balance in your life to bring about the wisdom and compassion for a full life. Good luck.

Spiritual awakening often involves significant personal growth and transformation, but it can also bring emotional and sometimes physical pain. This pain occurs because awakening challenges your old beliefs, patterns, and attachments. As you let go of these old ways, you might experience discomfort, confusion, or sadness, which can be overwhelming.