Dear Zenith:

A key sentence from your most recent post, in regard to OCD, is: “Its not allowing me to be myself.” From having communicated with you for so long, I know how important it is for you to be yourself.

What is it exactly, this thing that is not allowing you to be yourself, this OCD, aka what you referred to as my brain: “My brain started telling me that… My brain started getting worried about future… My brain is in fight mode” (July 30), “Thats what I told my brain” (July 31), “It feels my brain is seeking validation from other others” (Aug 6).

Your brain is part of you, but a significant part of it is operating against you (which is the case for many, many people). And the part of you that is being operated against (the “be myself” part) believes in much of what “the enemy” says.

You want to separate yourself from the part of you that’s operating against you, on one hand, but you believe what it says, on the other hand.

What if you do this exercise (maybe it will help): in one long paragraph let your OCD/ “my brain“, spill out all it has to say, just type it away, don’t censor it. let it tell you all that it thinks and feels about life and people.

Then (after some rest) let the other part of you speak and say what it thinks and believes.

After you complete the above (if you do): which part of you feels stronger, more dominant?

anita