Dear anita,

Hows your blood pressure? Alcohol intake?

The alcohol probably acted as a sedative. Abnormal blood pressure can cause all sorts of strange effects with hearing and vision, I have hissing/ringing in my ears pretty much all the time, it fluctuates throughout the day. For about 2 years after coming home from BC surgery I couldn’t go to sleep on my left side without loud whooshing/pulsing. Later in the night it would go away.

I might have to stop using the label ‘fate’, maybe BHC, beyond human conception. I get relief in knowing there are big mysteries humanity doesn’t understand yet. That I am just one infinitely small part of it. There is no who or what, there just ‘is’. When I am being mindful, I repeat the phrase “just be” and visualise/imagine other intrusive thoughts disappearing in a ‘thought shredder’. I have a tshirt with ‘be’ hand written inside a hand drawn circle.

I would love to fall through the cracks and stop this fog inducing medication from threatening my drivers license.

Hopefully your issues are just related to stress.

Klast