And yes, I also get bombarded from my mind with images of us being together, and then the questiones, why did it all happen?, why did it not work? what could I have done? what is she doing now?, who she’s with?, and so on come to my head and drive me crazy. Like my mind is fckin retarded and can’t grasp the situation where I’m single now and have to forget about it all and move on.

And I can have this self talks where I try to reason with myself how things are and that I should move on, but it’s like talking to a wall. I’m sorry, it’s like talking to a wall behind another wall. Man do I feel stupid -.-